Posted on Wednesday, January 31, 2007, at 10:10 PM
BOO (:using sis's lappy .
happy can .
whatever .
school's been fine .
i hope so . not really interested in anything .
but things just caught my attention . ironic .
i said what i wanted to .
thoguh some wasn't out yet .
still is up to them to listen .
to give up or not to .
is not easy . i don't know how the hell they will listen .
but whatever the case is .
i am tired .
i really am .
everyday , i lose hopes .
fell and land
harshly and painfully .
i utter nothing .
they understand ? no .
they think i am bad real bad .
but whatever the case is . i meant well .
is up to them to decide .
i want to .
but is that we are a team .
together as one .
sooo ...
they don't want i cant get it too .
well , i don't know what to say .
but that's their choice .
they choose .
(:
i'll try to .
slowly and surely i will let go .
emotionly i am too over .
but now is alright . i cool i think .
and i get over it .
let's get cranky and party all day long .
is happy day everyday .
i'm drained . but who cares .no one .
even i shower all my care , no one appreciate it .
no one return it .
doesn't pay to be a good person .
however i don't really want return so long everyone's happy .
might be my fault though .
i failed . loser i am .
mabe i cANT accept the facts that nothing gos my way .
not everything .
i cant get what i desire for .
that's the harsh fact . but is difficult to face it .
i'll try to .
yes or no . i know .
no maybe no perhaps .
noone understand .
think at a higher level . it helps .
but it brings confusion .
hahs . :D
just smile . get over it .
i tried my best to help . i tried my best to do everything .
seems is jsut wasted .
is nothing .
maybe is harming .
maybe is poisonious .
whatever the case is .
i'll try to .
just try .
:D
Posted on Sunday, January 14, 2007, at 3:28 PM
eff it .i thought everything had been smooth .
caused i followed the school's rules .
but some eff-ing idiot say i didn't .
i really don't know in what way i had offended him .
but somehow he dislikes me .
whatever .
i can call that bitching behind my back .
hahs .
but , eff it larhs .
i tucked in my shirt yet you say i didn't .
you said i hide from you ,
when i never even have the chance to SEE you .
there u go complaining .
eh please . wake up .
u want catch me , come infront of me and tell me .
then at least i know my mistake .
but you didn't so how in the world
will i know is my fault or yours .
now whatever you say you win .
you're the boss .
and stop telling people my LIFE story .
you damn sick larhs . like as if you never say my name noone know .
eff it . what a bitch .
hahs . you are not even fit to be one .
eff-er .
x((
homeworks to be done .
but done all , except pp and emaths . be done soon .
but eff it lahs .
i hate guys with pointed and sharp nose .
they are busybodies who interfere people's life
when they have no rights .
my dad and him .
whatever i do you don't reconise it .
everything is not enough for you .
for 15 years , have you ever say : 'well done ' ?
NO .
so you got no eff-ing right to interfere my things .
neither did u educate me properly , or even give me an education .
yes money is yours , but effort is mine .
soo please don't ask for too much .
stop asking me to wash my shoes .
and if you think a daughter who do chores are good daughter ,
go get a miad to be your daughter .
and . whatever .
i study is for my benefit , not for you to see .
and since there is no trust between us then forget it .
cause of ong mui hoon ,
u lost the trust .
whatever shit she said you believe .
DUMB .
too bad . you still don't understand your daughter , SEAHSHIYUN well .
you don't know how different she is outside and at home .
at home i only have insults .
nothing but insults .
you don't know how much your daughter HERE needs from YOU .
EFF IT .
pointed nose sucks .
well , at least i depend on myself . :D
the others , let's not talk about it .
is coming to an end anyway .
you guys don't treasure ,
then forget it .
just get over everything this year .
my new life will only starts when i get out of that eff-ing school .
:D
oh yea . mr heng came over to lysb .
he's patient , but not really that fun .
whatever . he taught us well .
:D .
i think what he said make sense .
we musician expressed ourselves through instrument .
:D
please come to an end can ?
i want to grow up .
i want to .
and prove others wrong .
aHHH . X(
Posted on Tuesday, January 09, 2007, at 9:30 PM
hahs . tutorial days .aand tests .
hahs .
think i am quite used to the life now .
not really that bored la .
quite okay .
xD
i know what's the best resolution .
i need courage to carry on with my LIFE .
yesyes .
i need it to survive .
i want to pass tommorow history .
so i can skip futhur tutorials !!
hardwork pay off with free days .
tralalalaaaa ~
off mugging .
oh yea .
oh yea . arena .
well done . congrads . :D
boohoo . - Retarded Idiot .
X))
nothing much .
Posted on Sunday, January 07, 2007, at 12:33 AM
saturday . nothing much actually .
hahs . did my english compo .
and chinese homework .
left with amaths .
and the rest revision .
still wondering to revise anot .
passed by quite alot of blogs .
ahahs . what i see is resolutions ,
and resolutions and MORE
RESOLUTIONS .
boohoo .
and all resolutions are the same :
i must study hard .
hahs .
if the whole of singapore stick to this resolution ,
and everyone really did it .
then everyone will get good grades ,
then alot of people will be going to jc and blahblah .
wtfuck . what am i talking ?
slap me .
i am BOREDDDDDDDDD .
i really am .
whatever .
gonna do some studying later on .
seat down and mug .
yes that's the word .
-MUG . :D
band . i still can't really let it go .
for now .
but i will .
cause i know i have to .
but i guess i want to handle the sec 1 this year .
i got my plans .
well perhaps skipping my tutorial on mon to go for that .
hope CBP allows .
:D
i did her homework okay !?
if she don't let i PIAK her .
heehee .
ahh i am boredddd .
;(
T.T
byeeee .
oh yea . please tag can ?
i am like an idiot .
oh whatever .
sec 1 orientation .
Posted on Friday, January 05, 2007, at 9:22 PM
third of school .was like woa .
sooo many many things .
history test .
physic test .
english compo .
chinese zuo wen ,
amaths .
T.T
this's not the worst .
tutorial days are packed like fuck .
piang .
monday - english .
tuesday - humans .
wednesday - sciences .
thurs - maths .
friday - free .
but what's the use ?!
is cca .
WOO . this is driving me crazy baby .
i really hope and pray and wish and whatever .
that history on tues will changed to wed .
at least a free day for me .
:D
but chances are low lahs .
school been fuck up .
please .
attire . please i dont believe in these fucks .
but for band i do it .
bullshit .
%&*%&@#%& !
so much studies and they cant let us go easy on such things .
but . 2007 .
o's year . nehmind .
i will bear with it .
hope i can .
sec 1 orientation .
quite okay .
my first attempt .
quite smooth .
hope they turn up .
smoke on water goes quite well .
=)
i want to make a comeback .
using my own effort .
i won't be as ambitious as before .
i won't be as lazy as before .
i want to make a change .
i want to ....
be a new SEAH SHIYUN . (:
i'm afraid i will lose everything in a blink .
what i used to have ,
what i used to own ,
what i used to treassure .
will i ?
maybe the answer it there .
just that i , we had been avoiding it .
a new year . (:
Posted on Thursday, January 04, 2007, at 9:54 PM
boo 2007 . hahs .
hope will be a nice one .
everything quite alright .
going to be stress up .
but hope i can endure and overcome it .
resolutions for this year ?
nah . i don't have .
not that i don't have any aims .
just that , a higher hopes a greater fall .
i don't want to fall again and again .
what for place a hope ?
when i know , i don't really work for it ?
is just false .
is all lies .
is all about me .
i still don't trust myself yet ,
so i don't expect anything from myself .
just enjoy .
but still work hard .
is a tough year .
just let me overcome it .
06 been shit for me .
shit .
i hate that year .
i must learn from it .
resolutions are all shit ,
unless u got the thing .
the determination .
if not don't place false hopes on yourself ,
and cry after u cant make the target .
lame isn't it .
just let life carry on .
one day it will stop .
and on the way , we will sure achieve something .
many things this year i guess .
frankly speaking , i am afraid .
i really am .
whatever .
i just feel ...
numb . :(