darker eye circle .
poorer complexion .
lousier eye sight .
bigger stomach .
crazier mindset .
aching bones .
heavier head .
badder temper .


but i love what i am going through right now .
:D


take care stranger .
you had got beautiful eye ,
don't get punch again alright .
remember , want to play ,
play bigger .
why first blood .
first organ la .
more hiong uh .
hahs .
seriously , you had make a fool
out of yourself again .
think you're cool , think again .
you think you won ?
you lost to yourself .


goodnight .
and much loves to my beautiful stranger .
take care loves .

23 more days to o's
damn .
i got to do something already .
i don't want to stay back and see the pain .
it tears me apart .
i want to move on ,
and replace my pain .
ease it .
but i know , somehow is still a scar .
and everything , is still a memory .



i miss you .

feeling fucking random these few days .
thus my posts were all short and direct .
seemed stupid , but is what i am thinking .
hahs .
get to know some few fucking lame things ,
and feel like fucking laugh out loud .
cause is so fucking silly and funny .


oh man .
it rained heavily in the morning .
so heavily , and i feel that it just so weird .
the class was very quiet today .
everything was like so still .
everyone looks so tired .
it just seemed like ,
everyone is so not themselves today .
especially me .
perhaps the heavy down pour ,
damps everybody mood .
perhaps .
the road , dte , everywhere ,
was like so quiet ?
so few person on the street .
the world today seems to me ,
is like so peaceful ?
hahs .
i don't know .

yes , you're my sweetheart .
in the past , present and future .
forever you will be .
:D

tired/sweet surrender/mindgame/suck/checkmate/lost/
studies/poly/friends/fuckoff/eatshit/stupid/ass/fool/silly/
moron/idiot/motherfuck/never ending/ended/love/hate/
you/me/lost/gain/friends/lover/sweet/sour/tired/awake/
new/old/dead/survive/goodnight/goodmorning/fantasy/realistic/
past/future/ended/carryon/whatever/anything/


checkmate .
you won .
i surrender .
love being with such bitches ?
go on ?
want to end your life eariler ?
then do it .
is no longer my piece of game .
i am tired .
so tired of this game .
ya i surrender .
i no longer want to continue the game .
you win ?
big winner of the day .
happy uh ?
let's see who has the last laugh .


my sweetheart ,
you had just lost yourself ,
your life , your mind and everything true .
all these fake happiness will not last long .
you're tying too hard my sweetheart .
way too hard .
get a life .
there's always a glimsp of hope .
dishearten .

goodnight/takecare/sleeptight/sweetdreams/bubbletea/dinner/mooncake/
slept/5/whitesand/mac/school/amath paper/fuck/dissapointed/nnb/tears/
school/shit/ass/random/hate/lians/bengs/die/elimate/fuckshit/useless/whores/
sluts/freedom/cigarette/fights/fake/deprive/hidden/hiding/escaping/crying/
baby/love/really/care/alot/damn/fuckshit/you/foolish/ass/not/what/you/want/
stupid/idiot/escaping/ruin/life/stupid/effort/gone/telepathy/sense/feeling/


i'll be your guardian angel till i the end of time .
i will be there for you , before your next tear drops .




there was this 24 year old girl ,
who broke up with her 7 years long boyfriend .
they were about to get married and even bought a new apartment .
the girl was an graduate ,
while the guy was a business man ,
very rich and handsome looking too .
in short , he was what all a girl desire for .
who was always oversea .
perhaps , it might be due to the reason ,
the girl lacks romance or communication ,
that's why they broke up .
not long ago , she met this guy.
and yep became an tiem .
then guy was just a typical beng ,
with low qualifications , and lousy character and attiude .
the guy scolds her and restricted her from everything .
she was a graduate mind you .
seriously , i don't know what she is thinking .
is she chasing a relationship , or just romance ?
is is because she was deprive of love , so she is getting all of it at once ?
but , how long would it last ?
builing up a family with a beng or a successful guy ?
is just a minute of desire .
a moment of foolish .
but who knows it might just ruin everything in your life .

take care .
loves .
don't ask me why .
i just had got my means ,
and i can feel .
remember , i used to tell you ,
i am seahshiyun .
and i am good . :D

monday blue / tie day / english result / okayokay /
chinese sucks / motherfuck / clara's house / biology /
jin's house / magi mee / home / 9 / com / tv / shag /
waiting / wishing / hoping / sleep / not / homework / lazy /
tired / not / dance / disco / party / high / fuck / nonsense /
horoscope / believe / stupid / fact / yaright / whatever /
anything / thirsty / drink / siao / misses / psychologist /
dream / pack bag / random / ending / not / lazy / bye / not /
crazy / boohoo / fucking bitch / ass / cb / insane / lalalalala /
moon / bright / round / nice / cute / egg yolk / heart / wrenching /
pain / help / boohoo / damn /


月亮带表你的心。

fucking god .
i really got nothing better to do .
AHAHA .

bloghopped , friendster viewing .
throughout the night .
i think , our generation and the generation before us ,
seriously is all so childish .
you know .
seriously lei ,
damn classic their lines their pattern .
whatever la .
if you think you are mature ,
then think about what you are doing now .
hahs .
you wouldn't see people in jc or even poly doing it ,
i am not refering to people who are the same age as them ,
i mean inside poly and jc .
these people grown , and had pass their teenage years .
oh .
if you think what you are doing now ,
is oh so no big deal .
then you are wrong .
cause when you are older you will regret ,
but you just cant stop already .
too bad lahs .

you know ,
people just grow through differently .
but is it so funny that ,
they think commiting crimes are just so cool .
but you think ,
when you go out to society to look for a proper work ,
with that fucking black record ,
you still look cool ?

you complain that ,
why you ain't rich now ,
why your parent can't earn much and provide big house and fuckshit .
don't insult them ,
cause when you grow old ,
you will be in the same shit situation .
you think you can live pass your adult stage with 1000 to 2000 a month ?
to you now , ya it seems much .
but please .
to an adult supporting everything ,
it just ain't la okay .

so stop being so stupid and keep saying fuck shit words .
and if you really think you guys are mature ,
look at the way you dolled up , the way you dress ,
the way you talk , the thing you are doing .
the way you are thinking .

knn .
damn shit . damn damn damn .
i pity every single shit out there ,
who used to be such an innocent sweet angel ,
becoming to someone like this .

fuck off and eatshit .
seriously .

omfg .
i slept the whole fucking sunday .
was fucking tired .
i did nothing man .
not even eat .

i think must be the singing and dancing on the beach ,
which really drained my energy away .
damn it .

fuck shit .
missed a session of pool with chris and marc .
i so want to play la .
hahaha .
i want to train my skill .
argh .


oh .
my blogskin is made by leong .
AHHA .
thanks alot man .
28 more days to amaths paper one .
and wtf ,
i spent my day sleeping .
alright i can study in the night later on .
BUT FUCKING HELL NO ,
cause i am feeling tired already .
don't know feeling damn listless yesterday .
like collapsing anytime .

haiya .
whatever fuck man .
just let me get over with o's .

school tommorow ,
a new day of the weeek .
yes one again , i dread that day to come .
cause it sucks like totally .

and wtf .
i pass my combine humans .
say cheers .
i failed my physic ,
like totally failed .
i am so ashamed to face mr onn la .
but i am so not physic type .
i just cant stand whatever shit ,
centre of gravity , momentum ,
workdone energy , latent heat of fusion .
how the electricity works , and gate and what not .
WHATEVER LA .
i not interested , totally not .

but it will be so knn to have a F9 on my o's cert .
and and , i think i did quite well in spa .
ni nao hia ,
what should i do .
maybe study ?
ah whatever fuck .
i am still tied down by pure geo and pure bio .
what fuck shit .
give me some power lei .
allah , god , guan yin ,
whatever it is .
just give me some power .

oh .
taking back english paper tommorow .
i am so gonna smash miss chee's face .

i want to work ,
and earn alot of money .
i just want to keep myself busy .
oh ya .
another activity on my list ,
voluntary work .
madness .
hahaha .
so ya .
psychology , jap lang and vooluntary work .
and many many part time work .
WOO . i am so busy .
HAHA .

but for now ,
i need a massage desperately .
most probably due to the long hours of sleeping .
fucking cb .
ARGH .

oh well .
i am waiting ...

mother fuck .
what is fucking wrong with my blogger .
cant change the font .
ARGH .

had tuition in the morning as usual .
was quite alright .
met they later in the afternoon ,
to study .
studied 3 years worth of bio mcqs .
was not abd .
but qute shag uh .
scored only like 33 .
had 5 to 7 questions wrong .
ARGH .
i wana aim full marks la .

nehmind .
practise make perfect .

went to beach at around 9 plus 10 ?
bought candles , fireworks , lantern and bubbles .
i was chaa high de la ~!
hahah.
don't know why too .
perhaps ya .
hahs .
XD

i miss those times .
remember ,
even if the whole world abandones you ,
i'll be right here waiting for you .
this i swear to you .
:D

oh .


fucking shit .
something wrnog with my blogger .
BOOHOO ~!

didn't went to school .
stayed at home .
studied pure geo .
weathering .
half way through .
:D
hope can finish by 5 ?
so i can meet marc and co for pool session
:D
cheerios .


oh well .
i hate staying alone at home .
but must train my mental .
:D


i asked sir yesterday ,
what is it like being an adult .
he told me , there's good and bad .
more responsibility , more regrets .
more everything .

perhaps i am understanding it now .
more .
so i would want to spend my young days wisely .
very wisely .


everything will end in a blink of eye .
it will .
the unkept promise shall not end .
it will be kept , in hope that it will be fulfill .
loves :D

BOOHOO !

is 1 AM .
and i cant sleep .
cause i don't want to sleep .
cause i want to study .
cause i want to score well .
cause i can hold my head high .
cause i want to many things after o's .
cause i want to do things with pride .
cause i want to earn my respect .


randommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .
kick boxing , psychology and japanese for me after o's .
and i'll be taking up if can 2 jobs .
oh my god .
so many things i want to doooooo .
alright kick boxing sounds abit riddiculous ,
but since my bro offers me , so why not ?
AHAHHA .
psychology and japanese is for interest .
and i wana do many thing after o's .
gym , beach , zoo , nightlife , friends .
whatever .

thursday .

ninabei .
never get back any paper at all .
whatever man .

perhaps not going to school any of the days next week ?
cause i want to study at home .





everything will be fine one day .
feeling damn random .
!@#$%^&*%#$%
30 more days to o's .
and to the end of my secondary school life .
i shall pick up and take up as many things as possible .
you&i would never end

i hate the world .
i hate myself .

sub conscious , yes i am .

moving ahead , something holding me back .
the answers i needed desperately .
fly to my face will you ?

AHH .
is driving my mad .
i just feel like ...
smiling forever .

%D
yes insane i am .

i will never give up .
never ever will .
not matter in what .
and i'll do whatever it takes .

i will never give up .
in my studies , family , friends and you .
i swear i will always be there you .





i want to score well ,
but am i able to do it ?
yes definitely .
i am gonna block everything out , for this month .
but what if i just don't score well after i strive so hard ,
i swear i will jump down .


and , i want my pure geo scripts !!!
i want to see .
why i fail ?
damn .
cause 2 chaps mean nothing seahshiyun .
46.8 ,
o's will be 86.4
YES IT WILL C:

but i gave up on my life already ,
cause it doesn't matters anymore .
it says , she's dead emotionally .

WTF !!!
damn it damn it damn it ,
bathing ape is fucking cb cool .
and nice nice nice .
damn it la ~!
fucking nice sio .

but ....

FUCKING EX ~!
one shirt for 130 bucks ,
WALAO !
i don't care gonna buybuybuy .
HURHUR .
hahahahaha .

money money .

and and and i saw a diamond spoongebob necklace !!!
fucking nb NICE .
any kind souls get it for me pleaseeee .
i will do anything .
AHHAHA .
fucking nice .
ARGHHH ~!

on , tmlro getting back paper .
bless me uh .
HAHA !
loves and nightnight .
xoxo

well you are my strength
even though i'm never weak
and you are my joy even though
i'm never sad
but sometimes i get
just a little mad .

cause here i am ,
take my hand .
why cant you just understand me
don't run away .
will you ever realise ,
there is more to life ,
than meets the eye .
don't run away .

hold on my heart ,
like a moon to the star
you are in my head ,
always be and never part .
but sometimes i get that you don't even care .

hopefully someday you'll stop ignoring ,
cause isly .

:D

studied bio mcq with marc and chris .
was a soso one .
not bad uh .
hope i still can remember .
but should be alright .
:d


after that , chris's friend came over ,
syafiq and kia .
nice guys :D
pooled for 4 hours ,
and yea cost us 48 bucks .
ninabei .
but was worth it la .
cause i greatly improved !
damn alot .
fast learner , bobian ~!
HAHAH .
thanks uh marcus .
:DD

oh yea .
tmlro last paper for prelims .
cheerios .
and then chiong ah chiong !
HAHAHAH .
like real .

wanted to write all the essays i learnt .
but was fucking lazy to do so .
ARGH .
oh i got my new mickey mouse pencil CASE .
HAHAH .
fucking childish ,
but i likeeee ~!

loves .
XOXO
nightnight .

相信人都会跌倒。
跌倒，再站起来是为了走更长远的路。
流血是让你知道痛的感觉，
所以你才会学会。
疤痕是为了提醒你所犯过的错误，
所以你才不敢再犯。
如果站起来了，却有心无力，
再跌在同一个位置，哪流血干嘛？
每次跌在一样的位置，有一天那个疤痕会烂和麻木。
到时你就会感到后悔，不过都烂了，
不会恢复了。
到时你只会痛死吧了。

so what having the intention to do something ?
to change for the better ?
you need to really work on it , and take the extra miles to .
how can you expect people to give their trust they used to .
when you had broken their trust ?
you got to work for their trust back .
so don't blame other when you cant continue the journey ,
saying they don't trust you ,
you deserve it .
don't use that as an excuse for your failure of journey again .
is more of actions than words .

who in the fuck world , can spare more thoughts for me .
please i need that .
死掉算了。

oh boo .
woke up early for tuition .
really is cmi .
so tired , damn shag too .
:(

reached home , slept , and woke up quite awhile later .
by some shoutings , i don't know who's .
i cant be bothered too .
went out studied , much of talkings .
hahs .
:D
walked home .
took the long path ,
i need some of it .
no , many of those times in fact , where i stroll back
with peace .
:DD

having so much random thoughts .
and yep .
sis left , everyone miss her .
yep is sad for 25 years of relationship to be given away .
but everyone have to go one day .
everyone got to establish themselves in one way or another .
there is alwayas parting .
is difficult for 25 years to be given to him .
but you got to trust him , that he will continue the years with her .
if it hurts you all seeing each other like this .
then i am feeling worst .
both side i think is wrong , but i cant voice out ,
cause i don't want to hurt you guys .
then i got to hear ranting from both sides ,
disgusted , but what can i do .
i heard high hopes pin on me ,
then what about the pressure .
i am still young okay ?
16 years old , i don't wan be tied down my family problems .
i heard both parties and it seems like is all misunderstanding .
yes sometimes they are overbroad sometimes you are overbroad ,
but each got their flaws . and i thik you ought to accept theirs ,
caused i can tell they tried to accept yours .
both is selfish ,
one cant let go , the other cant wait to be free .
you gained a man , they lost a child .
so much of a marriage .
but perhaps they are thinking too much ,
caused i know you'll be back .
but what else can i do ?
nothing . yes nothing .
cause i am the youngest , i cant talk sense to adult like you guys .
ya , true . but i think you all just doesn't make sense .
i am feeling terrible .
very . my hopes seemed so dashed ,
and i feel the extra hopes of their weighing down on me .
gosh . what they want me to do next ?
score 8 a-s ?
and stay at their side forever ?
but i want to play . but if i did , i am selfish .
what should i do .
what the fuck .
i am confused , stop contradicting me .
i had my own plans .
am i being selfish ?

ninabei .
i thought it was a happy occassion .
supposed to be .
after , before or during , it should be .
sigh .

还好我们还有你陪我们。
那谁来陪我 ？
代沟 ， 你们明白吗？

sis's wedding was blast .
today was a tiring day .
rushed through the whole day uh .
in addition with my period ,
ninabei , so irritating uh .

sis's wedding started of with the sword barrow .
is it how is spell ?
whatever la .
but was damn grand la .
the montage was very beautiful .
hahs .
brought back tonns of memorises i guess .
the food was awesome .
damn full .

overall , is a fun and interesting experience .
first time in my life .
HAHA .
i will have my next first time too .
:D

oh .
screw amaths ppr .
doesnt make sense at all lo !
the questions all fuck one la .
don't make sense .
wtf .
was damn piss off by it .
mt paper was so sleepy .
i slept uh during the paper .
teacher woke me up .
waseh , if not i think i wouldn't have time to finish .
HAHA XD .

and i like the chinese compre .
very nice ?
HAHAH .
ya , people tends to only treassure something , when they lost it .
so cherish everyone around you now ,
before you realise you had already lose it .
(:


all the best to jiejie and jiefu .
jiejie uh .
i miss you eh .
so much .
i miss your care ,
your irritated face ,
your angry face when i make you sad .
your naggings , your scoldings ,
and your everything .
hahs .
sounds so mushy , but is true .
:D
and and i want to be a yiyi soon .
:) grant me my bday wish .

i want to smile whole heartedly during my bday too .
:D

:DD

emaths paper was really okay .
hope i can score well ,
but 12 marks gone ,
go ya PLEASE ,
88 upon 100 .
HAHA .
fucking hell never do 12 marks ,
ni na bei .
fuck fuck fuck .
dick , pussy , ass .
whatever uh .


waseh .
mt was crap la .
i feel like an alien taking that paper .
was having cramps,mense,headache,backache,fraustration
and whatever so not .
fucking hell ,
couldn't concentrate .
i re write my compo 3 times ,
fucking 3 times ,
cause why ?
i wrote the format wrong .
ARGH .

wasehhhhhh .
woo . sis's wedding tommorrow ,
so excited !
hahah .
for the food please ,
okay abit for her .
i will miss her damn much when she's not around .
okay i miss her already ,
but i act like as if i don't .
hahs ,
sis i miss you freaking lots kay ?
cause i know you loves me so much ,
despite all the irritations you got from me .
and so much of troubles i caused you .
thats on purpose you get it ?
just to make sure you love me more ,
and of course i know you do ,
after all i am so cute .
your seahshiyun sister fucking cute .
too irresistable ,
that's not a joke alright .
is true , from the bottom of my heart .
sis , saw it ?
don't be touch .
i know you do .
<3>

oh well .
another day of amaths .
so gonna own .
hope so .
many days of mugging after that .
:DD

WOO .
good game to physic .
to hell with it uh .
i studied like all the essays for bio ,
why didn't it come out ?!
why come out all those easy de ?
why no menstration , pollination ,
fermenation , FERTILIZATION ,
eh say la .
WHYY ~!
structured was like =.=
first question stoned .
WASEH !
wa lao .
but ...
haiay .
bad day .
amaths was ...
okay uh .
really hope i can pass .
i know my careless just gonna pull me real down la .
WTF MAN .

nehmind .
i am already bucking up .
so sad about my bio .
damn sad .
so sad until i don't know what to say .
but i really very sad .
ARGH .

hahahahah .
madnesss .
a day lack of sleep ,
can really drive me mad man .
HAHA .
i need sleep .
:D
i got no mood for other paper now .
my mind is in a blank .

WOOHOO ~!
just got back home .
i damn zai one .
HAHAHA .

argh .
tommorrow ,
pure bio pure physic amaths .
well .
don't know how will i fare ,
but cant wait to do amaths and bio ppr .
as for physic ,
gonna sleep through the paper
HAHAHAH .


yes , did promise i wun be back so often ,
but , cant resist the temptation of it .
hahaha .

oh ,
really hope history is a good pass ,
and obviously emaths too .
was okay , but , seems like alot of careless .
mother's pussy .
everytime like that .
can go die uh .

fantasy;lies;utopia .
:(

STUDY SMART EVERYONE ~!
40 days to o's amaths ppr 2 .
((:
2 more months to my birthday !
HAHAHA .
:DD

guess after my prelims ,
i will be away for some times .
around 1 month or so .
till o's end .
most probably .

:D

i had been waiting ,
but the waiting has been vain .
it has been long .
today 10th of sept .
hahs .
is alright .
you cant remember too .

:D

信。
相信一天你会好好的过 。
<3>
love sees no flaws .
but you see through mine .

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
finally !!!
no more pure geo and ss !
WOOHOO ~!
so ya so ya .
think can just scrape through ?
hope so uh .
but quite statisfied with my er pure geo ,
plate tectonic and amzaon answers .
i sure own (:

the rest of the question is seriously crap
just wrote crap .
literally .
HAHA .

very tired .
damn tired .
fucking tired .

i just feel like sleeping forever ,
and not wake up at all .
at least what had happen ,
is just a dream ,
or i don't have to face anything .

argh .
somehow , i hope o's is tommorow .
i want to start working .
start playing .
start everythin new .

still , i rather find something which i had lost ,
rather than something i dno't even know .

WHATEVER ~!
MUG HARD !!!
GOGOGO ~!

PUNDEH LA DEY .
i haven start my anything .
went ikea and shop around .
ya it beats staying at home doing nothing .
i should be studying right ?
ya right .
but you didn't .
GOOD GAME LAHS .

damn it la sio .
so dead .
but i got the urge to do some exam papers .
like amaths and emaths and chinese
ONLY .
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .

maybe ,
i will just smoke through my o's .
then get some course in poly ,
then start to excel .
cause , one can develop interest ?
HAHA .
rubbish .

WTFUCK .
i had been playing all day long .
fucking cb .
HAHAHA .

i feel so like a retard man .
BOOHOO ~!

i want to start my life afresh .
i want o's to end .
real soon .
i wish is just tomorrow .
HAHA .

imysb .

i feel so like vomiting now .
had steamboat for dinner ,
and durian for desert .
damn full .
and i fucking eat alot .
is like wao .
and waowaowao
whatever .

waited for quite long for table .
so fuckedup .
and seriously , cheena is so !@#$%^& !
argh . cut queeu nabei cb .
hahaha .

damn .
i am so dead .
i haven start SS .
really got to chiong .
think i can do it ?
i doubt so .
argh .
really hope pure geo ,
will come out something nice .
pleaseplease .
i wana score tht .

if you could see your future
perish at your own hand now ,
why stand there to do nothing ,
and not to stop it from happening .
save yourself .
is always not too late , many other doors are always open .

why why why .
there is so many why i want to know .
and i had never regretted any of my action .
cause whatever it is ,
is always a learning .
learn and not repeat again .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
mad .

walao .
everybody is having tuition ,
school stuffs and what so ever shit .
and i got nothing on today !
damn it .
haha .
should use it to study
but quite lazy to ,
NO , is very lazy to .
fucking cb .

was feeling kind of moody .
er now .
hahs .
no idea why too .
feeling damn random now .
like ..
nah . is alright .
i can wash it of me .
i will do it .

didn't like the dream i had .
i hope is not true .
i rather is not .
i rather you'll be safe .
damn it .



AHHHHHHHH
study la SEAHSHIYUN .
u knnbpcb .
fucking cb
so many things to study dun want .
you think waht .
o's next year ?
knn , left 39 days nia hor . u fucking bitch .
and what .
prelim on monday .
u think you got time ?
go check calender la dey .
study la cb.
play what fuck .
knn .

you still want to achieve not ?
nabei .
motherfucker ,
u like tht where also cannot go la hor .
you dream long long sajc .
kiss my pussy lei ,
seahshiyun , wake up la hor .
don't be so lazy la .
you motherfucker .
wake the fuck up ,
and start opening your fucking book .
nabuay cb .

argh .

you promise me heaven , yet you put me through hell .
why is it so ?
:(

went to meet jin on monday .
was super high !
met a new friend .
guan jun .
HAHA .
damn funny .
then had pizza at clara's house ,
her dad's treat .
yes i am kiao .
who cares .
HAHA

went sentosa yesterday .
damn it .
fucking got burnt when there is no sun .
CCB .
had fun with my classmates uh .
((:
had steamboat , and yep a long ride back .
:D
4e1 is so loves .

went studying mac .
alright la .
did transpiration .
ONLY .
gosh .
i got so much to study .
and so much to play .
WHAT TO DO .
study la .
your so much to sutdy last for 40 days only .
your so much of play is unlimited le .
alright alright .,
i shall start studying .
LOVES !
40 days to o's .
CHEERIOS .

went to play pool .
fun okay .
one day , i shall own marcus and ariff !
anyway , thanks for the coaching .
hahah (:

i used to see my future ,
but now i don't .
i am just smoking my way through .
is that life ?
or should i be serious get some achivement ,
and be known .
is uber contradicting .
perhaps . it's all meant to be .
is it true that , what's yours here be yours ,
and what not yours will not be yours ?
i thought , we work for our own success and thing ,
and what so ever shit .
but why such a saying ?
DAMN IT .

nehmind .
alright .
nightnight .
loves . XOXO .
<3

is 3 12 in the morning and i cant sleep .
is like ,
i am waiting for something to happen .
hahah .
waste of time .

well anyway .
the world is beautiful ,
and so love it .

had a wonderful chat with jin .
what a nice one
:)

lovesssssssssssss .
xoxo
take good care of yourself .

if i pray for happiness ,
do you think he will give me happiness ,
or a chance to be happy ?
if i pray for his safety ,
di you think he will give him his protection ,
or a chance for me to protect him .
hurhur .

nice eh .
i like this .
lalala .

suddenly , having so much dreams .
sometimes i hope is true .
but ya . i don't know .
hahs .

er .
42 days to amaths paper one .
good game for me .
i don't know .
i am so afraid i will screw everything up .
i don't want to be alright alright .
i want to be superb .
but after all ,
it takes so much to be superb but is it worth it ?
is it better to stay ordinary ?
well . i don't know .
we all had got different definations .
and i had lost mine .
and so ya , come what may .

end everything off with this .

a perfer marriage is not when the
perfect couples come together ,
but is when the imperfect couples trying to enjoy
each differences .

true true very true .
damn .
i don't know what's wrong with me .
brainwash me .

:D

i try not to communicate with the world for 1 week .
alright .
5 days no com ,
3 days no com and phone .
don't ask me how i did it .
i just , restricted myself .
HAHA .
but phone was caused i left it with renyi .
and i was too lazy to get it back .
but is alright .

this week was an eventful week .
lots of fun i must say .
was having english prelims on thurs .
well , paper 1 was quite screw .
paper 2 was tough .
so overall is a dead .

damn . skipped road race .
hahs .
went to meet marcus and co .
after that went to meet renyo and co for movie .
well , evan almighty .
nice show .
quite inspiring , humor was alright .
worth the watch uh .
went to eat steamboat .
BEST UH .
had so much .
was sooo full .
hahs .
took bus 12 back .
didn't quite like the feeling , but well ,
had little chat with sam and renyi .
so was alright .
(:

reached home around 2 .
leong stayed over .
oh thon i must say .
what's thon .
it means staying over at someone's place .
not sneaking out in the middle of the night ,
going to er car park or what so ever to slack .
that's not thon .
that's lanpa . that's lame .

saturday tuition .
totally not on form .
mind was blank .
whole brain clotted up with shit .
damn it .

and yep .
isolated myself .
classmates all were like ,
where are you , hiding or something ?
HAHA .
chill uh bangs .
i am fine .

i am gonna end my post today ,
on the next post .
gahs .
loves . (: