leong was my heroin today!
not the drug,
lol, i don't know if i spell it correctly,
but it supposed to mean a female hero uh.

ok my spelling isnt suppose to be the main point,
the main point is why is leong my saviour?
she helped me to take out my ...
i-fucking-regretted-
and-i-think-i-got-scam-by-the-bimbo-there-i
think-she-is-a-bitch-anyway-extendsion hair.
YES.
haha.
is not she managed to take it out,
is the fact that she took it out without any tool!
haha.
she practiaclly pulled my hair lo.
=.=
luckily,
being born cute and brave,
the pain was nothing,
instead she was screaming like a cb there.
hahha.
the last pull was pain,
that i must say.
hahaha!

anyway reborned my hair,
need to get it cut tomorrow!
bless that it will turn out well.

my money you know!
HOHO:D

Someone who cant answer their on actions,
and got to beat around the bush to protect avoid the question,
can never be counted as a someone,
or even succeed in life.



and if there is no reason why you choose such a decision,
then it means the person you hurt,
doesn't mean a single shit to you.
and yes, it does hurt.

Did i tell you?

i finished reading my book.
not very abusive.
dont really like the content,
however,
the storyline and the descriptions were good lo.
hoho~

i like.


Have you ever wondered how the world will be with many you.
sometimes i hope,
my dad is me, my mom is me, my sister is me, my bro also me.
{maybe i will keep him alive so he can entertain me :D}
and everyone is me.
get married with shiyun,
give birth to many shiyun(S)
make friends with shiyun.
go to school and greet miss shiyun.
election and vote for shiyun.

WA!
damn shiok.
i think the world will be peaceful at least.
no quarrelings.
cause i always give in,
but maybe my world tastess sour,
cause everyone insult each other.
but not themselves.
HAHA.


imagine a world with shixian.
everyone will bake cookies,
feel love, cause everyone receive cards from each other,
eat everyday like as if they in war.
but!
they will rush here and there for nothing,
if one shixian cries,
all the shixian(S) cry!
hahaha.
so shixian cannot get married to shixian,
and give birth to shixian.
cause if baby shixian cry,
EVERYONE CRIES!
papashixian and mamashixian will
panic and dont know what to do,
hug each other and cry!
HAAHHA XD

if grace have her own world,
no one will have any relation with each other.
cause they dont express their feelings out.
then everyday will be quiet,
can even hear the foot steps of the ants.
then you will hear music as communication.
then if you enter her world,
you cant find her,
cause she will be covered by the tall grasses.
and you know why the grasses are tall.
cause all the grace(S) are lazy
:D HOHO

if leong have her own world,
everyone will stay happy.
cause everyone insult each other but doesnt mind,
cause leong doesnt have temper.
but if papaleong and mamaleong gives birth to babyleong,
then most probably babyleong will get killed.
hahaha.
no!
if babyleong takes money from mamaleong,
then mamaleong nag at babyleong,
baby leong will tell her leong friends,
about how irritating mamaleong is.
familiar eh?
hoho.
if all the leongs have mense,
then the wwana sleep.
everybody will be quiet,
no one will get it.
HAHAHA!

if clara have her own world,
it will be in darkness.
HAHA.
no la.
everyone will have dark humour,
skin color + jokes.
hahah XD
then maybe sometimes one clara will pissed another one off,
and that clara will be superb angry,
but for 1 day only.
next day,
the clara will make prata for everybody! (:

if joanne has her own world,
most probably they will knocked on to each others.
cause head too big.
haha.
no.
most probably,
if one joanne feels that the other joanne is sad,
the other joanne will try to console her,
but the sad joanne will says she is alright and keep everything to herself,
so everyone will do the same thing,
in the end the world will be fun on the outside,
cold in the inside.
if there is joanne as a president,
most probably,
all the joannes will feel love,
but when presidentjoanne did wrong things,
then all the joanne will feel be sad.
but no one say it out.
cause that is joanne.
and the president joanne will not know.


so how about your world?
how will it be?
can you be in my world?

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

HOLYSHIT.

This relationship has- and will continue to- change my life.
so what about you.


shoot me dead.

dinner with renyi clara leong and grace.
after dinner,
went leong's house for mahjong
and daidi.

okay la.
i quite irritating.
quite only.
heehee :D


oh ya!
i had sakae with xian joanne and shirlyn on friday.
did i tell you?
it was great and fun.
cause my juniors just rock.
hoho!

looking foward for another lunch date.
:D

A drunken man tells alot.
i am so unsure of the expression.

perhaps i should just keep trusting.
Is not over.
Not so soon.

I felt your heart bleeding,
i should ease it for you,
and embrace you in my warmth.

promise me, it will never happen again,
promise me you will be a stronger man.
i do believe :D

Someone who took care of me since young,
feed me and everything.
but i cant really say,
she takes care of me,
but she didn't not do her job.
i dont know how to feel towards her,
but i would say i pity her.

i wonder how can someone,
said such awful words/phrase.
is like inhuman.
and how someone can change so fast
just to earn the liking of her husband.
this women really loves her husband so much,
then he is the only thing she would want on earth.
noone, i mean noone can get close to him,
be it their own children.
is funny isn't it.
that's where selfishness comes in?
or true love being possesive?

no definite answer i think.


And now i would no longer know how to show
emotions to her.
i am too afraid of her,
too amused by her.
i nolonger can love and smile to her like i used to.
infact i had not smile or laugh with her in a conversation.
cause she screws it all,
she hates conversation.

i cant understand,
and she unknowingly hurt me,
puzzled me and definetely,
input fears in me.
the fear of being like her,
having her character.
i hope is not in the blood.
seriously.

and i miss you like crazy.

Is not turning out right.
It used to be,
what happen?

Are you really tired?
No, you're just sick of it.


I hate it when you hide,
and want to rest.
stop giving yourself excuses,
wimp/coward.

Motivated is to be motivated by that few seconds.

Inspired it to be inspired for a life time.

it lasts forever.

How would someone be inspired?

How can someone inspired anyone?

8D

heehee.

is not who you guys think it is la.
he is very fine and good to me. :D
is sherlock homes.
=.=

such a bitch.
i cursed the ONG family.
bye~



i went back to lysb.
waseh.
it no longer has the same feel.
but i still love going,
cause i get to disturb people non stop.
and is so fun de lo.

and i dont see the point of having power struggles,
and stupid people controlling brainless idiot.
and worst of all,
nonsense decision made.

it comes to a point where,
the passion is gone,
and the sake of it is there.
it comes to a point where,
members are willing to be in tutorial than there.
is stupid please.


yes, the feel is different,
cause is no longer lysb, lys.
is so so so not lysb.
goodbye.

:(

is a sad day today de lo.
but i enjoyed my night and dinner :D

dinner at grace's house was awesome.
had so much fun and winnings.
haha (:

we didnt take any photos lo.
so sad de lo.


and walao,
he taxi driver sucks lo,
so old, and asking me for directions.
if i know directions what for take a cab.
and he looks like pig lo,
but nehmind since he old,
i took the bus route.
heehee, so kind of me.
{whatever, i think i rock please}

anyway,
talking about pig,
it reminds me of that day,
when i was alone shopping,
and i walked past mei zhen xiang,
and i was thinking about pig,
which links to pork,
and then it links to ba gua.
and since is cny,
i recalled that i didnt eat any BAGUA~
wtf.
and when i returned home,
and was craving for ba gua,
tmd, NOMORE LO.
i damn sad lo,
i stand at a corner of my house crying silently,
hoping for baguas.
sighhh .
HAHA, no la was exaggerating.
woohoo.

anyway that was fucking random,
but idc.
and i love to laugh at myself,
still idc.


bye.
night.
LYSB tomorrow.
hopefully payday too :D
loves.


lucks for your test.
sigh.
i really hope you mean it.
:(

walao.
my jaw damn pain.
i think dislocate le lo.
hahahaha XD

play la play somemore.

currently at my sister's place.
:D
miss her so much de lo.


anyway,
i saw neorenyi on CHINGAY!
yea.
dont really care la.


gosh.
spending too much on food.
jack's place and pizza for today meals.
lalalalalala.

okay.
i'm tired.
nightnight.

steamboat at grace's house tomorrow~

my feet is hurting me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
D:


went to ccps,
went for lunch and shopping alone!
so pityful de lo.
haha.
but not ba,
had terpanyaki and hagen daze for lunch.
(:
shopped nothing,
i hate my longgggggg body.
argh.


went back lysb,
promised to get a longer pants.
HAHA XD
anyway had dinner with them at astons.
delicious.
damn full.


not a bad day.
i'm happy and content.
hope it can be like this everyday :D

"Do you love me?Do you love me do you love me do you love me?
Please say you love me even though i dont deserve to be loved."

i know you do. HAHA (:


awww. i feel so bad and happy at the same time.
i'm an idiot lo.
but at the same time i am a genius HOHO.
haiya, ni men bu ming bai de la, si you wo dong.
HAHAHAHAHA XD

had a great dinner/night with clara leong and grace.
definetly had a great day with :D


i am over the moon now,
and somewhere over the rainbow,
is where you'll find me/him.
:D



happy belated Valentine (:
joanne is an ass.
no, a dick.

is the anger that keeps me going,
faster and faster.
as i ran, everything came pouring out.
till the time i feel that,
i couldn't carry on,
i sit down, catching my breath.
and i know the anger is still there,
abit more and i'll be alright.
you hear the echo of the bang on the wall,
and it pierce right through the hand all the way up.
it hurts.
alot infact.

i feel dumb, weak and tired after all these.
a plate of fried noodle with chilli is the best.
however, i cant take spicy food,
you know the consequences,
we all know.
but i dont give a fuck.

i had been waiting in vain.
anticipating for something that wouldn't happen.

even if it's meant for a happy occasion.
you suck as a planner.
seriously.

i just want to feel love for that moment.
but is just not the right time.
sorry guys, to make you worried.
:(


and i do truely miss you.
how about you?
i ponder.
D:

did i tell you or not?!
i bought a story book lo.
23 bucks!
is about 2 sisters being sexualised aand belittled since young.
and only one survived lo.
damn sad de lo!
hahahah XD

bu i read until chap2,
she also did not kana rape or abuse lei.
only once,
by her neighbour.
SCAM MY MONEY!
hahahahahah XD

i feel so proud of myself buying this lo,
normally i will cheat my friend in buying story book,
then kiao from them.
normally i am the first to read.
not the buyer!
hahaha.
abit kiao~
IDCCCCCCC! 8D


clara said that i am sick.
always read such book.
hahah.
nice what.
damn exciting one.
but i still prefer the child called it.
DAMN NICE,
feel like smashing the mom's face though.
there is 3 series lo,
i read 2 le,
should i buy the combined one?


fuck la.
i love staying at home lo.
stupid idiots always go town,
yes LEONG AND GRACE.
:D

walao.


went jap language class.
so feel like having refund.
hahahha.
but i did learn lo.
just that i dont have the chance to speak.
wa,
i can be a pure jap le lo.
HAHA, like real.
i cant pronounce some words.
boohoo.



i really suck with rainbows lo.
but i think i still rock,
cause i make nice musical box.
BITCH!
haha, i so bitch lo.
but i do really admire myself,
i am really too good for the earth.
HA!

:D

nightnight.
one more day to valentine.
quite a stupid day lo,
i feel dumb.
HAHAHAHA XD

i forgot something important.

i met up with my lovely 4e1 classmates.
so fun.
miss vicky treated us to souel garden.
i eat alot today lo.

and i really love my class.
hope more gathering like this,
will happen more in future.
heehee.


who says e1 are nerds,
well, at least mine is not.
we got the brains and the humour.
wa
SIBEI HAOLIAN.
haha.
idc la.

bye.
muchmuch misses
xoxox

fuck la.
leg cramp.

totally not in mood already.
damn shag.


grace and leong cheated my dad's money.
i want and demand them back.
okay, at least half.
haha.
went raffles had new york new york.
they cheated me again,
ask me to pay the service charge and gst.
cb 20 bucks lo.
and total we had 92 bucks lunch,
so expensive worzxzxzx,,
kekee~.


walao,
i think i should bring back the candy floss machine la.
hahaha .




somewhere over the rainbow,
blue birds fly.
there's a land that i once heard of,
once in a lullaby.
someday i'll wish upon a stars.\
imyb.
boohoo :`(

new year was a blast.
i think.
get to meet up my cousins,
and crapped with them.

first day of new year,
had steamboat crapped through the night,
and went for prawning at bishan.
prawned till 6am in the morning.
was damn tired when i reached home.
woke up at 4 and went visiting again.
:D
heehee.

you know i think i'm sick.
i love to make little kids cry.
i dont know why,
i just got the urge to make them cry,
and feel the happiness and excitement in me,
after i succeeded.
WOOHOO~

mad.

i think people who meet up with friends
for the first 3 days of cny,
had got no family love.
HAHAHA.
serious what.


anyway,
i had serious and drastic moodswing.
shag.
and i am still thinking about the animals,
i want to save them.
i really want to peel those idiots.
cbcbcbccbbccbcbcbcbb.
AHHHHHHHH



i hope for a better year la.
cause i think it will sucks so much.
and i hope i can find a band,
and get my butt in soon.
everything and something is just missing.
i want to get that feel back.
URGH.


stay close to me.
i want to hear you.

happy new year!


had a great reunion dinner with my relatives.
so happy that we are still that close,
and still stick to each others :D




anyway,
take a look at this:

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org


omfg.
i think all these people should also be stepped on their heads,
and have their skins peeled!
so so so gruesome.
i mean they are not dead yet you know!
alive and kicking!
wa.
such china people,
just got to go and die.
seriously,
damn gross.
fuckers.

china had been doing stupid things,
cheating others countries,
so fuck up.
spreading diseases,
causing harms so many lo.
i feel so disgraceful to be same race as them.
so gruesome evil whatever la.
gosh.

i pity those animals.

guys! stop buying fur clothings.
if is hanging around your shoulder now,
you might not know,
it might be the one in the video!
protect the animals,
they are so lvoeable please.

i shall make cheap rug the next time.
is to skin those china people alive,
and give it free to every household,
to make rugs.
CB


anyway,
HCNY.
lovessssssssssssss <3

yea.
i am so happy.
on the path to recovery.
on the path to victory.
HAHAH.
lame.

now my throat feels dry.
nehmind.

did i tell you!?
i collected my blog items and pay le.
so happy worzxzxzxz.
wa.
not bad lo.
quite please with myself.
i dont know for what,
just please okay.
madness.


anyway,
the gilian and the edison,
and all those scandals pictures had been exposed.
yesyesyes.
what's wrong man.
is nothing big what.
celebrities cant have their own sex habits?
if edison love to take down such scene,
and memorable scene,
then let him la.
not like as if he rape those girls,
and force them right.
and worst thing,
is not him who put in online what,
is what nbcb expose him,
catch that idiot la.
invade people's privacy.
who are we to comment on their sex photos?
both parties are willing what.
then intend to keep it what,
but got one idiot spread it around,
then catch that indiot la.
invades peoples privacy lei.

somemore,
sex photos is all those pose what,
either you spread your leg,
blow job eh whatever la.
those few.
what's wrong.
nobody ask you see.

this is making such a big
nuisance in singapore,
because singapore got no NEWS to report.
you think european countries even bother?
please la,
their minor news is someone robbed the bank lei,
our major news is maybe car accident?
lame man.
just dropped the subject la.
irritating.

and to those young bitches.
dont know dont anyhow talk.
you cant judge someone dick when he is having sex,
cause man STEAM,
it grows thicker and bigger.
so stfu.
and you had got no rights to say gillian is ugly,
she is pretty la,
though i got to agree her singing sucks.

eh whatever.
edison and those other girls,
have their right to take such photos.
they are pervert if edison post it on net himself,
but is not what.

is doesn't even concern us lo.
no wonder singapore is topped in kaypo.
and what era is this.
come on.


happy ny.
loves.

sore throat is really terrible i tell you.
i was like a total mute.
it was damn fucking terrible.

today is a damn damn damn unlucky day.
and i dont feel like mentioning what happen.



i want to get well before cny!
and and,
i will never never fall sick again!!
i promise.
just let me get well please.
i will not eat too much oily food at one go.
ahhhhhhhhhh.
i want to get well!



and the stain on my throat,
is soooo unbearable.


thanks for being there for me.
loves.


i hope everything goes well.
really.
please be fine tomorrow.
argh

walan eh,
sickness marathon lo.
if there is something like that uh.
what i am trying to say is!
i am sick again.
not stomach infection,
but soar throat and fever.
and FLU.
omgod.
is so torturing lo.


and i really miss me sis so damn muchzxzxzxzx.
i remembered those days she just to take care of me,
when i had fever and stuffs like that.
now,
i tell you, is so suffering without care when you're sick.
didnt want to tell papa&mama,
cause doesnt want them to worry.
hmps...
so throughout the god damn night,
i got to wet the towel by myself,
got to do everything by myself.
cant imagine it.
worst still,
no one cares you know.

despite the fact that i got to,
fight the illness,
still got to bear with my fucking bro.
kept irritating me.
and keeps asking his gf not to care about me.
ljljljlj.
FINEEEEEEEEEEE.

haiya.
i really do miss my jiejie la.
i want to move in with her!

i miss my friends.
alotalotalot.
:(

ccps isnt that bad today.
had much fun.
kids are love.

weather was fine,
very nice for a sleeping day,
so i slept.



PAY DAY AND BLOG BOUGHT ITEMS ON MONDAYYY.
so cool lohzxzzxzzxzxzxz.
my phone bil :(


whatever.
friends over lover.
what's next?

please,
can something just motivate him,
let him become some real man.
can he just have the courage to carry on,
such a wimp.
i cant help it, sorry.