i am at my sister's house now .
will be staying for days .


i am not myself these few days .
i cant think properly .
my mind and action doesnt connects .
so just pardon me .

what you see ,
might not be what you see .
uh huh ?

Are you happy ?
what's your defination of happy .
i supposed there's many different answers to it .
but if someone laugh wholeheartedly ,
does it really means he/she is happy ?
if someone joke everyday ,
does it really means he/she is happy ?
well then what makes one happy ?
a happy family ?
wealth ?
romance ?
studies ?
achievement ?
play ?
crimes ?

so which makes you happy ?
and how happy would you be after doing it ?
or is just for fun .
so does this fun leads to your real happiness ?
does it ?


i am feeling random .
ignore me .
i am acting like as if o's is over .
and i cant wait to get my result slip .
oh damn .

isn't it tough wearing a mask everyday ?
give it a break .
just a day rest will do .
then you'll decide the rest .

you don't even care about your result slip .
what has got into you ?
don't you want to know what had you done to your studies ?
efforts ?
don't you want to know what subjects you will get ?
afraid uh ?
chicken out yea ?
cause you jolly well know what you did .

MY EMATHS PAPER 2 SUCKS .
it makes me feel more like a fucktard .
goodbye to A1 .

i couldn't sleep the whole night .
i got to wake up early in the morning .
the feeling sucks .
i was feeling fucking tired .
i mind went blank .
my mind was all messed up .
everything is gone .
so gone .

why didn't you just response or what .
so i wouldn't be not sleping ,
thinking what you might want to say .


HAHA .
i was just being exaggerating .
okay . i don't know how will i fare .
but i seriously , didn't catch a wink the previous night .
and i think it sucks .
what to dooooooooooooo .
everything is driving me nuts .
and is like endless .
is like a non stop merry go round .
when will it stop ,
and let me catch a breath .

so which do you think i am feeling now ?
the second or the first ?
who knows ?
or none ?
noone will ever know ,
cause even i don't .
then how would you be able to guess it right .
son of the bitch .

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemondrops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh why can't I?

Some day I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemondrops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh why can't I?

i think this is the finest creation of song .
is damn nice .
and i love it .
play for me .
would you .

feeling so bloated now ,
and felt like vomiting .
xD

didn't have the mood to go out .
but had to ,
to collect my stuffs .
and was too lazy to go home myself ,
so waited for my dad to fetch me home at 7 .


recently ,
i had been feeling rather tired .
tired of going out i guess .
i don't know why too .
don't feel like mixing around ,
or what so ever .

been thinking about what i'm doing after o's .
i need the gym , i need the salon desperately .
HAHA .
and the shopping malls too .
hajilane .
WOO .
i am coming i am coming .
and all those chalets and barberque .
:D
i need to work , need to learn jap and kick boxing .
perhaps taking up dance course too ,
do i have enough time ?
damn .


can i spend one day of my holiday with you .
can i end this fairytale beautifully ?
or can i continue this fairytale ?
would you allow it ?
would you ?

HISTORYYYYYYYYY .
i went not prepared .
only browse through the book .
cause i thought everything was already in my brain .
and i went in .
flip open the paper ....
and really i could do it !
HAHAHA .
woo so happy la !
i think all thanks to mr mohd teaching ,
which input everything in my brain .
there i don't need study ,
also remember !
:D

i was still so paranoid by my pure geo paper ,
and i am still now .
so worried .


so to calm myself down ,
i went to play pool and chri's chalet .
not bad lahs .
just abit uneasy .
with thais and hongkongers around .
had to be quite formal and poliet .
so not me .
HAHAH .

chris's bro , justin is god damn cute .
hahah .
:D
oh well .
i missed the last bus ,
and waited like a gcb until like 12 plus .
got uop the cab ,
and told the uncle the wrong street .
reached home about 8 dollars fare .
=.=
felt like crying .
well .
nehmind .
sometimes i am just abit blur .
XD

if i talk to you ,
would you scold me ?
T.T

UH ?
really ?
i am taking my o's this year ?
damn la .


history , history .
i am going crazy .
can i go in with a empty brain ?
uh huh ?

damn damn damn .


i'm not certain .
i feel so unsure .
i want an answer .
i want a comfirmation .
online and tell me quick .
stop leaving me with doubts can ?
wapianggggggggg .
i am feeling giddy again .
slap me .

WOO .
pure geo is OVER .
yeayea .
but fuck it ,
history tommorrow ,
and ss and BIO .
damn la .
so no mood .
OHHH ~!

i did two geo questions today ,
which i never study at all .
and fuck ,
why didn't volcano and earth quake came out .
is a must what ~!
kan suay la .
@$@#%$#&&@ !
i did other questions .

i feel like crying uh .
history history .
please .
policy of appeasement .
please .
war in europe .
please .
war in japan .
please .

come out laaaaaaaaaa .
8)


UH ?! you mean i having o's this year uh ?
damn .
i just realised .


i think i know .
but then i think i don't know .
so can you please just fucking tell me .
8D

haha .

initially ,
agreed to meet chris at 4 am in the morning .
then obviously ,
we all couldnt wake up .
so yea postpone to 7 am in the morning .
still we couldn't make it .
so yadayada on the phone ,
we agreed on a time , 9.30 .
HAHA .
still not up yet ,
ended waking up at 12 by marcus ,
and supposingly meeting at 1.30 ,
and obviously , we met at 2.30
HAHA .

nothing much today .
crapped studied .
pure geo tommorrow .
so dead .
i am trying 3 chapters ,
at the very first time .
i need lucks now .
lots of it .
pleaseeeeeeeee .


why cant you just believe me .
let my heart be the place you want to land .
let me revive you .
please don't be dead ,
i am willing to revive you .
:D
are you willing to ?

o's .
amaths was i don't know .
hahah .
paper one ,
was pretty screwed .
wasn't even feeling stress .
but the moment i picked up my pen ,
damn kept shivering .
so ya mental block too .
but nevertheless !
paper 2 was pretty good .
WAHAHAHA .
okay .
so hope i can pull up my overall ,
and wish that moderation ,
will make me A1 .
imagine a D7 amaths student , to a A1 ,
i'll be so proud of myself .

is none of other business okay .
hahah .

good luck to all .
so loves .


what to do .
you teach me la bung .

fucking shit .
amaths tommorow .
all the best for everyone .

mom's in hospital .
relative pass away .
these days had been rushing up and down .
feeling superb giddy when i reached home .
but i brought upon myself .
hahs .
woke up superb early today ,
and went hospital .
fucking hell .

but i am not gonna let this throw me down .
i will stand up and do what i should .
so even when i need you ,
would you be there for me ?
or would you still be going around to steal bikes .
i don't understand why you become like this .
i don't agree with the fun and excitement at all .
i really wish you would be back to yourself .
and not someone i don't even regconise .

look into the mirror ,
your hunchback , your face and lips colour .
is no longer the same .
everytime i saw you ,
i feel the pain .
cause your image tells everything .
take good care of yourself .
drink more water .
really .
before you realise ,
having a straight back makes you even taller .
well .
is all up to you .

loves .

how can i ever survive .

so sad la .
didn't go for graduation day .
i overslept .
damn it la .
didn't mean it lo .
was so tired .

i seriously will miss my juniors and friends .
and of course teachers too .
i remember when i was lower sec ,
i misbehaved in classes ,
played worms with the malay boys ,
chased taufiq around the school with duster ,
ended getting very dirty .
how we used to stay back in school ,
rushing dnt pieces ,
band ,
class decoration ,
games
or purely slacking .
hahs .
i smoked my way through lower sec ,
and made it in sec 3e1 .
sec 3 was like the best period in my life .
though it was full of shits ,
but it was really memorable .
i had great friends , great class ,
great band , great junior and of course ,
great you .
i remember the times where we celebrated each other's bday ,
with surprises and all .
how we joked around .
go around taking photos and everything .
it was awesome .
starting of sec 3 ,
i started of being a retard in that class ,
ended up a joker in that class .
hahs .
band , was the more serious side of me .
and is where i really put in my effort for everything .
was great .

i will definitely miss school days .
waking up early in the morning ,
singing athem ,
looking at how lkl make a fool out of herself ,
critising her english ,
getting caught for attire ,
disturbing my classmate ,
getting high in the morning ,
being crazy after school ,
shouting at my band ,
and everything .

:D
1 more day to o's .
and i think i am ready .
gonna go all the way out .
loves .

there's too much for me to say
too much for me to tell you ,
how much i miss the time with you .
but even if i say ,
will you believe i miss you ?
everything stays in the late night conversation ,
the morning breakfast ,
the afternoon games ,
the night wishes and kisses ,
and the midnight songs .
would you still believe me that ,
i still remember ?
would you still believe that i believe in you .
like how i always do .
do you ?


anyway .
i don't think you are uttering nonsense .
infact i think you are superb right .
seahshiyun knows when to act and what to do .
thanks for reminding me that .
all the best to you too jaslyn .
you'll make it big .
:D

fucking ccb .
pcb .

everybody go and die .
everybdy fuckoff and eatshit .
ccb .
i hate the world
i hate my family
i hate studies
i hate my lover
i hate my bestfriend
i hate everyone
i hate myself .

is fucking coming to o's ,
and shits are rolling in .
i want to study ,
can stfu ?
ccb

cant all the fuckers just tell the truth ?
say truth very difficult meh .
ccb .
go and die la .
ya la i bitch
i am the worst person on earth la .
wtf
the person i love doesn't even trust me .
go and die okay .
ya la .
whatever i say is nothing compared to what she said .
ya la .
whatever la .

i don't know , to have doubts in you
or not to have doubts .
cause i don't know how to trust you .
ya you .
fuck off la .
what are friends for .
is for you to fuck them upside down ,
and just say goodbye .


fucking shit la .
i not feeling good okay .
i had been miserable for these few months okay .
why when i was about to step up ,
you have to push me down again .
"no i trust her"
then carry on trusting la .
your fucking prob .
don't trust me la .
ya la .
everything is my fault .
ya i am the biggest bitch on earth .


fucking hell la .
i know my future la hor .
i don't need adult to tell me what to do ,
and to contol my life .
this is my fucking life .
okay .
i born to this world ,
is not to accompany you ,
or be your toy .
i came to this world with one reason ,
to lead my own fucking life .
so whether is good or bad is none of anyone fucking business .
so fucking hell .

all my closest one love hurting me right .
tell you .
you all ALL succeeded .
thanks for making me irritated .
fuck off and die .
ya i should die cause i bitch ma .
ccb .

damn .
i just don't understand .
i am feeling so vexed .
i don't know how to control my thoughts .
i am having so many answer and question
in my mind .
so many doubts .
so contradicting .

just tell me the truth can ?
just tell it straight to my face can ?
i don't ike to be kept in the dark .
even if it hurts me ,
i want to know .
i don't want to be like a fool ,
being brought around the merry go round ,
knowing nothing , yet going round and round .
is very tiring .
please .

can you like tell me everything i want to know .
please la bang , or BANGS .
i want to know .
i don't like to have doubts .
and you want to know how i feel ?
this is how i feel over the past months .


Saturday, September 22, 2007
10:19 AM
the promise i gave you , will be kept .i said i will hold on to your hand ,and walk on the journey , i mean i will .and i mean it .even though i am no longer by your side ,but i will do whatever it takes to watch over you .i love you and thats the fact .nobody could explain why our love would develop .not even me .i just love the way you are .the way you smile .the way you talk .the way you think .and everything .i love you and i really do .i remember wht you did and what you said .i remembered what i did and what i said .no matter how hurt i am now .i know you feel it worst than me .but baby ,let me be at your side to feel it with you ,to share with you ,to ease your pain with my kiss ,and to embrace you in my warmth .like how i used to .i will never let go of your hand useless , i really got to go .i miss you baby .i seriosuly do .i miss your laughter .i miss the way you kiss me .i miss the way you hug me .i miss the way you feed me with water in your mouth .i miss your tom yam soup .i miss the bus journey home with you .i miss the walk with you home .i miss smacking mosquitoes with you .i miss eating cup noodles with you .i miss having breakfast with you .i miss drawing on your fac e.i miss playing ji ko pa with you .i miss playing water with yuo .i miss going to band practise with you .i miss going to eat sakae with you .i miss going to dental appointment with you .i miss having to eat pizza with you .i miss taking the train together with you .i miss going to hair cut with you .i miss practising with you .i miss doing homeworks with you .i miss playing seesaw with you .i miss watching movie with you .i miss having seoul garden with you .i miss having long john with you .i miss eating kinder surprise with you .i miss your call in the night .i miss talking to you on the phone all the way to morning .i miss your miss calls .i miss the way you anxiously looked for me .i miss the you acred for me .i miss the messages you had messaged me .i miss the web cam session with you .i miss the 3G with you .i miss your crying .i miss your tears .i miss your cute voice .i miss disturbing you .i miss irritating you .i miss washing hair with you .i miss hiding at your place .i miss waiting bus with you .i miss you walking bare footed .i miss you holding my hand tightly .i miss taking care of you .i miss going shopping with you .i miss playing with you .i miss piggy back you .i miss dancing infront of you .i miss making you laugh .i miss seeing the way you laugh .i miss your laughters .i miss you tickling .i miss your bite .i miss your pinch .i miss watching tv with you .i miss playing poker with you .i miss going to beach with you .i miss watching stars with you .i miss loving you .i miss every single part of you .and whatever you did you said ,i will deeply remember .i love you baby .and remember ,i believe in you no matter what baby .you will be fine my baby .i will pray for you .your safety and everything .i hope you do fine baby .i love you , and you'll be theonly one i love .cause you gave me meanings in life .now i am leading a no meaning life .and i cant find back my real happiness .one day i will .and i hope baby ,you'll find your too .i only hope ,you would call and chat with me ,or share with me your pain .so i can be tehre with you again .baby .i love you .i miss you .i need you .i want you .as much as you do .i want to know do you miss me ,as much as i miss you baby .tell me baby .whether our love was once true . loves

if you want to know , read all these .
is alot , is on my private blog .
and you know what , is the truth .
so stop doubting me .
i hate it .
cause i seahshiyun , had got nothing to hide .
please .
see and use your brain to think .
fucking hell .
i am fucking not feeling alright okay ?
am if i am so bitch to you ,
then at least tell it right to my face .
you don't even trust me ,
i don't understand why .

not going school today ,
which is WEDNESDAY .
hahahaha .
so gonna complete my geography physical uh .
been so slack .
suddenly feeling very worried for my pure bio .
what if i flunk .
ho seh man .
hahah .


damn .
i don't understand .
i had never been fine since the day you left .
get that into your fucking brain .
i hope is still there .
before blaming everyone ,
and thinks that the whole world owe you ,
can you ever place yourself in others position ?
please ?
you are not feeling good ,
i am not feeling anywhere better .
i wouldn't feel better ,
if you are not feeling good .
remember , i said i will hold on to you ,
means i will .
even if it takes me forever to ,
i will .
if i as a stranger a bitch to you now ,
could even believe in you ,
how about your mom ?
who had been a biggest bitch and a closer relative to you ?
think about it .
you are not the worst on earth .
cause even how pathetic you are ,
i'm here for you .
and i do miss you like hell .

should i go school this week ?
maybe i should .


fuckinghellllllllllllllll .

damn .
just cant wait for o's to end .
seriously .
one week is killing me la .

fucking hell .
i want to work and earn money .
i want to have fun and party all day .
not that i love working life ,
just that ,
i don't want to be bothered by my parent .
i don't want to live and take from them .
i don't want to owe them anything .
i want to pay back every single shit .
they just don't understand .
fucking ass .

actaully , i don't feel like leaving the school .
school days are fun especially with friends ,
and band .
i cant imagine ,
after o's i had got nothing to do man .
i want to work and attend courses
and party .
but what if those idiots don't let .
fuck uh .
i just want .


damn it .
i need to study and focus .
i had ended my revision man .
i haven even revise all .
fuck la .

please , get everything done .
if only you were here ,
i would have more drive for everything .
i would have more will for everything .
but you ain't .
noones know how you feel ,
but i am willing to know .
tell me ,
even it takes my whole life to know ,
i would and i'm willing :D

omgoddddddd .

i didn't study la .
damn it .....
feel so guilty .
didn't have the mood to man .
so shag uh .
went bugis for steamboat .
feel like eating .
so ya , now i feel like vomiting .
hah .
ate alot .
whatever .

HOWEVER ,
how on the way there i did some revision .
read my geo notes .
constructive waves :
powerful swash than backwash ,
longer wavelength shorter wave height ,
on gentler slope .
cause more of construction of coast due to deposition .

4 erosions :
hydraulic action :
when the weight of the wave hit the coast ,
it weaken and loosen rocks , and ultimately break off .
the water also surges in the cracks of the rocks , tightly compress the air .
the compressed air , exert pressure on the line of weakness of the rock .
when the wave retreat , there is a release of the pressure .
the trapped air will then exert force on the line of weakness , cause it to widen and
weaked , ultimately breaking apart .
abrasion [corrasion] :
wave bring along stone pebblea and gravels .
when the wave hits the coast ,
the materials act like a chisicilling tools ,
breaking the rocks of the coast .
this is the most agressive erosion .
attrition :
solution : chemical reaction .

haha . that's all i remember uh .
thats what i studied .
:D
oh well .
tommorrow then chiong ?
see how uh .
8 more days to o's .
yea .

didn't attend school on friday as usual .
miss tok must be very angry .
i am sorry .
:(

went whitesand , study .
didn't study much that day .
went leong's house .
fucking scald my fingers .
minor one though .
quite painful , but is alright now .

went to watch the show mr woodcock .
quite an interesting flim .
irony was there and humourous too .
it says , letting go of the past .
i just cant seem to master that .
you know the beautiful past ,
when everything seemed so beautiful ,
when the girl and the boy was both beautiful ,
when the girl and the boy did many beautiful things together .
when the girl loves the boy alot .
when the boy loves the girl alot .
when the boy was so beautiful .

i have to let go of the past .
perhaps i got to have the courage to accept the reality .
and not to change or carry on lying to myself .
i have to admit ,
you're no longer you .
you were something great in my world ,
yes you are right now , you are nothing in the world now .
and boyboy , is such a disgusting name .
please grow up .
i still think baby suits you more .
however ,
you are no longer baby isn't it ?
you are now a boy .
a grown up eh .

it was all the past .
it is really a pity , for you to become like that .
stop wasting your time .
cause you are way better than them .
you had got better family than them .
but perhaps ,
you just took advantage of everything around you .
stop wasting your fucking time .

i had got to move on .
i had got to move on .
i had got to move on .

why do you love to hurt and dissapoint everyone around you ?
why do you love to give your care and attention to people you don't like ?
why don't you look around you , and see who needs your care and attention more ?
why do you love to lie to yourself ?

break my heart , what for break yours ?

oh man .
some how or another ,
my 50 bucks is gone agian .
only in a day or two ?
didn't buy new things man .
perhaps is on food again
XD
man .
no i promise i wouldn't spend my money on food again !

12 more days to o's .
yeayeayea .
i smell freedom ,
but still not feeling the punch yet .
don't know why .
AHHHHHHHHHHH .
oh man .
not be going school next week .
:D

today 1010 .
the perfect date .
eh bang , remember the promise ?
i do .
hahs .
i'm just a bitch la .
whatever .
the memories live on ,
and you lived in my memories .
that's all . <3

isn't it so amazing .
like how someone who was once so closed to you ,
so familiar to you ,
suddenly became so distant to you .
so distant that ,
even an exchange of glance had to become so secretive.
even a word or two ,
is so difficult .

is just so strange .
it was fate which brought two together ,
and it was fate which pulled two apart .
maybe is not fate ,
it was the two who broke their own fate .
but perhaps ,
fate could bring them back again ?


oh damn randommmmmmmmmmmm .
ignore me .
just don't understand thigns around me .
is really not easy to be happy .
i feel that my happiest moment was my saddest moment ,
cause that was when , i know ,
everything was true and strong .

we really had to have the courage to accept reality ,
rather to chage the reality .
accept the fact .
perhaps .

alright .
if you are the man .
you should go to this website .
http://xd0t.blogspot.com/
the clothings damn nice la .
expecially the jacket .
and is cheap okay .
i mean for those branded stuff ,
this consider cheap .
:D


oh yea. i am very interested in that ,
comics hoodie .
buy for me la ~!
hahaha

13 more days .
i really need to study .
i need to study
i need to study.
i need to study ?
i need to study !
i need to study ~
i really need to study ~!

damn .
when can i start to settle down .
i want to get good grade .
boohoo .
i don't think i can .
help lahs .
perhaps that's life .
round ruond the merry go round .

today had been out since morning 6 to night 10 .
my contact lens was like dried up ,
and it hurts my eye like FUCK .
but i like ..
cause the pain kind of ,
shiok uh .
hahhah . XD


ate alot today .
don't know why .
must be the riddle yesterday .
HAHA .
macmaffin ,
bin tai feng ,
mc cafe triple decker&chocolate
swense

and inbetween i ate alot too .
so ya i am getting fatter .
but i don't careeeeeeeeeee .
cause i like !


excatly 2 more weeks and it hits o's .
what to do ?
study , but i had not been studying hard .
this 2 weeks pure chionging .
no com no com no com .


maybe one day i will be down with
serious gastrics man .
with the rate i am going .
need to watch my diet .
:D

oh yea .
i really want a pink psp badly .
is so cool la .
got hot red de ma ?
i am going to kiao man .
just kiao from anyone .
HAHAHAH XD
hope can get my N76 soon ?
still got to wait till end of november .
suck cock .
hope to get new lappy soon .
anything la .
just want everything cool .
so i am just gonna kiao from anyone
:D

feeling so out today .
so kind of piss people off .
but i don't care .
cause i wasn't feeling goo d.
too tired i guess .
:D

lucks to juniors taking EOY .
lucks to people taking O'S .
many many lucks to people i loveeeeeeeeeee .
xoxo
nightnight .

these few days been ,
mugging , eating and pooling .
HAHA .
15 more days to o's man .
not feeling a thing yet .
checked out some courses on the net .
hopefully i can get a place in there .


damn my stomach . is fucking pain .
guessed my gastrics is acting again .
mother fuck .


oh damn .
had not been attending ss lessons .
what if i fail my ss ?
T.T
haha . wouldn't la .
decided not to take pure physic paper for o's .


been blasting music into my ears .
and i likeeee .
especially ,
hip hop and rock .
damn nice eh .
i like the feeling .
:D

will be doing voluntary work after o's .
i want to help the misfortunate and spread love .
hahs .
rather than those ,
doing nothing on the planet ,
wasting resources and harming the environment .
living on earth is just an extra .
doing stupid things ,
acting great on earth .
but for all they know ,
they are nothing . and just kids .
grow up and get a life .
please do more good deeds to clear your sins .
and i mean SINS .
but perhaps ,
it might not be enough ,
cause you guys just suck .
oh yea .
you're damn right .
i am refering to chao bengs and lians .
oh and those people who had got no brain .
ugly and stupid .
ugly people tends to not get attention .
so they do bad stuffs to attract attention .
but i don't understand why handsome guys do it too .
perhaps some handsome guys ,
just have no brain .


blahblahblah .
long day tommorrow .
i need sleep .
loves (:

thursday .
lesson was super fun .
cause of the boys , the jokes ,
the chats and ya the disturbance .

went home , and went out to bedok .
finished my 2 chinese compo like finally ,
and completed my maths june paper .
oh praise me man .
read a book on psychology .
was a very interesting book i must say .
it teaches people how to forgive and forget ,
what it takes to do it ,
and what you get after you did it .
it says what excatly is happiness ,
both poverty and wealth had been defeated .
which i think is very true .

what happiness really means .
define it man .
waseh .
but i can borrow it la .
fucking library .
nehmind .
i shall read it tommorrow ,
and quote it .
:D

oh loves .
tommorrow , shall not go school .
cheerios ((:

you could put the blame on me .
sweetheart take care so much .
cause is forever .

19 more dayssssssssssssss .
oh man .
school is super fun today .
was having much fun during lessons and
after school . :D
samuel is fucking funny .
and i mean fucking .
AHAHAHAH .

did amaths paper ,
was alright .
refresh with bio , kind of happy .
pure geo is still like half way cooked .
nehmind .
i shall mug all the way .
:D

i love being with my classmates .
cause they rock .
HAHAHA .
loves .

:D

2nd october already .
20 more days to amaths paper .

school was alright today .
everything was in a mess .
walking around to find classes .
from f block to A block .
so fuck the school .
at first , they claimed not to waste time moving to next class .
now they don't tell us which class for the lesson ,
and ya wasted our fucking time .
so what now ?
you have the right to do it , and we don't ?
ironic uh .
too bad , the school is run by you , not by us uh .


went for some o's briefing .
i slept .
seriously tired .
went down mac cafe , had dinner
then chat .
was a awesome one i guess .
HAHA . XD


self denial .
maybe i had been .
all this time .
i thought he was still with me .
i thought you would still love me .
i thought there you'll be for me .
it was all thoughts afterall .
get into trouble again ?
all the best alright .
try to escape from the punishment .
love .

monday blue .
baby blue , light blue ,
dark blue .
whatever it is ,
today i am feeling fucking blue .
so tired .
hahaha .

my mind was totally off .
and just felt like shooting my mouth off .
don't know why too .
argh .
i spent like 50 bucks in two days on food .
and is food only .
ARGH .
dead . superb dead .

i need to buck up .
and ya ,
i need to attend school ~!
attendance had been poor .
whatever uh .
3 more weeks to o's .


我知道这样不好 。
也知道你的爱至能那么少。
我至好不停的要，
要到你想逃 。