If i can make people around me happy, why not?
if i can choose to live my life happily or sadly,
why should i even be sad at any moment in my life.
there's just no reason to.
I GIVE BIG KISSES OKAEY?

Any excuse is still excuse, no matter how good your excuse is,
at the end of the day, is just how your excuse excuse you away,
and how your excuse cover up your own bad, to make you feel alittle better.

When you grow up, blame will starts to become shame.

spending a hour at the busstop,
blowing balloons, ignoring stares,
stared back at them is so FUN!
walking to simei with balloon is super fun!
lol.
i never been so tired preparing for surprises.
FUCK YOU RY!
but it was all fun :D
stayed over at airport, dance like mad.
HAHA, then breakfast at mac,
i am a damn good story teller know!
damn smart what :D

anyway, i damn kind and sexy please,
i lend one dollar to an unknown guy in the bus,
when i myself dont have enough money for the next bus,
that's why i walk.
but i still feel i damn kind and sexy :D

happy 17th birthday neorenyi.
you son of the the mother lover :D

twudayy iyee chaoo school worxzxz. kekez. iyee shoo naughtii worxzx.

burdd alshoo nortt gwdd nehzxz, shoo boringg @ homee,

shoo i 1 daee orhhorhh lorhhh! iye berri piggpigg wrightt.

iyee noeee. heehee. euu lurbb mwee nortt?

iyee lurbb mweselff shoo muchiee muchiee.

tmrroww gortt showw wmwee projj twuu cherr norhzxz,

paapaa siaa. shooo fcukkk norhsss.

haiishh. iyee dhourght dhiss ishh shooo shoo..

FUCKING SUCK BALLZ LA! HAHAHA I AM BORED! :D

2 movies in a day :D

lesson learnt:
never sit between two idiots.
especially mark and weelyn.
end up getting deaf,
or being whack to death by mark!
LOL!
=D

lovessssssssssssssssssss

I ALSO WANA TRY!

What Seahshiyun Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Dont lie and say that it's okay
It's alright if there's nothing more to say

So I'm running away, I'm leaving this place
Yeah... I'm running away, I'm running away

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame
It's too late for you to make me stay. No, I won't stay

So I'm running away, I'm leaving this place,
Yeah... I'm running away, I'm running away

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving, yeah... I'm leaving today

I, I'll never let you find me, I'm leaving you behind with the past and No I won't look back
And I don't want to hear your reasons, don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay
Try, try to understand me, try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place, leaving and I won't wait, I'm running away

I'm running away, Im leaving this place,
Yeah...Im running away, Im running away

I WANT TO HAVE A BIG BRAIN!

this is damn suck ball.
i wake up so damn early la! cannot believe it.

3 things i want to do today:
i want to sleep the whole day.
i want to have bigger brain than rauf!!!
i want to win jonathan in word challenge.

hahahaha!
stop raining la mad ball, i want to fucking go out! :(

hey stupid dumbfuck!
fuckoff! :D

Ulcer and period is damn suck ballz please!
im soooooooooooooo annoyed and tired,
for dont know what reason.
i want to sleep!

stupid period.

A lantern of wishes fly into the dark sky,
it lights up the whole beach.
just like how i believe that the hopes on the lantern,
will eventually be fulfilled, and light me up.
how hopeful am i?

i want to go to the beach again.
it has been so long.
i just want to see you for one more moment.

3 random facts about me:
i want a panda as a pet.
i am damn sexy please.
TKL'S blog suck ballz please!

HAHAHAHAH.
ok tired, :D

Do you still remember rhapsody of hannuka?

<3

Curse and fuck all human on the planet.
anymore moment without laughters, is so gonna fuck me up so completely.
and i just totally cant stand the sight of anymore gross human beings.
such pest should just totally be fuck, and i wana spray pesticide on them!
insert super fuckup face here!*

and if you think you're a born loser, you think you're just a burden on the planet,
then just fucking go and die! cause you're a loser anyway, and who gives a fuck care?
just fuck off.
i want to smile now!
and i so need love badly now. :(

my mom just fucked me up from my fucking sleep.
AHH.
fucking annoying know!?

and then suddenly i am having doubts again.
does the fault lies with me?
or is it just that the world is fuck up.
isnt it nice and good when there's trust between human,
but why just why must some people misused the trust?

idk why i am so upset right now.
and i just cant find the reason.
and for once, i feel like crying really.

WOO, i finished my final faster than i expected!
:DD
oh yea baby.
not going school for 3 daysssssssss.
:DDD

woo. im fucking tired,disturbed, grossed, irritated, grossed
damn fucking tired for some reason(?)
i want to sleep.
and nobody will ever gonna take my sleeping time away from me.
i used to, but now no more.

POCKY chocolate crush is loves!

:D
final assignment is here, and i only got like 2 days to complete,
and is on like damn big 1 metre board,
this is oh so scary, but i am so gonna do it!
my collage looks like shit but i reckon is gonna be nice on the board,
as i know i'd add more things on it, i guess.
hopefully, he'll accept my ideas,
and hopefully everything will be smooth,
gotta start with the main body, then can add in the decorations!
i hope it looks damn collage enough though,
but it really sucks know, damn ugly!
:(



i'd kill you, revived you and i'll kill you again.

Mad tv is damn awesome!
LOL!
just cant stop laughing at it's humour and all.

i want to get married to coach hines la!!!
HAHAHAHA
then he would just make me so damn happy every single day in my life.
:D
SO HAPPY

madtv just rock like totally.

I'M GONNA KICK YOUR BALL SO HARD, THAT IT CREATES A VAGINA.

Contemplating.
too complex, too simple.
too true to be good.

thank or sorry?

i dont understand why my fucking mom,
added chilli into my magi mee.
i dont fucking get it?
doesnt she knows that i cant take chilli.
i think even the pet fish knows i dont take chili!
haiya dont care,
i also dont know why i so pissed off.

fareast today with leong.
shop eat shop eat shop eat.
damn nice!
then bus home :D

Ronald sent us a very funny yet high youtube video,

by right is to release stress.

i tell you, if you only sit and watch it doesnt work,

so you must stand up and dance together with the music!

CHAO HIGH SIA

hahahahahaa.

thats what i did. damn tiring,

but damn high, idk why sia.

HAHAHAH.

i make pbj laughed hahahahaa

fucking annoying know.
fucking cant load into tp's web!
wtf, fucking wana check mails la.
wa fuckfuckfuck.
this is fucking annoying me to the max.

and my ear is rotting uh!
stupid ear ring.
fuck sia. HAHAH

i want to vent!
KNNCCBXYZZZ!
ahahaha.

All we need is,
a tennis ball and a soccer ball,
5 retards and a pretty to spend the whole night away.
HAHA.

this is a lazy week, lazy week to get everything started.
and now,
live life like as if everyday is the last day you'll ever live.
cause you'll never know what happens next.
but live smart please.

WA, IM GOING MAD FOR THOMAS DALEY.
HE DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN CUTE!
HAHAHAHA.

:D
when you look me into the eyes.

Through early morning fog I see visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me I realize and I can see . . .
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
I try to find a way to make all our little joys relate
Without that ever-present hate but now I know that it’s too late,
and . . .
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
The game of life is hard to play. I’m gonna lose it anyway.
The losing card I’ll someday lay so this is all I have to say.
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
The only way to win is cheat and lay it down before I’m beat,
and to another give my seat for that’s the only painless feat.
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
The sword of time will pierce our skins it doesn’t hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in the pain grows stronger . . .
watch it grin, but . . .
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
A brave man once requested me to answer questions that are key
'Is it to be or not to be' and I replied 'oh why ask me?'
That suicide is painless it brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
And you can do the same thing if you choose.

The thing about life is not about how long you will live to,
is about the moment which takes your breath away.

i'm getting fat :(((((

The more we get together together together,
the more we get together the merrier we'll be.
for your friend are my friend,
and my friend are your friend,
the more we get together, the happier we'll be.

You're my sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey,
you never know how,
how much i love you,
please dont take my sunshine away.

i love you,
you love me,
we are happy family,
with a great big hug,
and a kiss from me to you,
wouldnt you say you love me too?

an idiot conversation.

Idiot: good afternoon mdm. im calling from #&@!*$# to ask you a few simple questions,
would you mind doing this short survery for me?
Pretty(ME): YE... ( before i could answer)
Idiot: how often do you go travelling?
Pretty(ME): *cursing and swearing inside, like knn i haven answer yet how you know i fucking wana answer you.*
Idiot: once a year, twice a year, thrice a year or seldom.
Pretty(ME): seldom.
Idiot: will you pay by cash, credit card, cheque for payment?
Pretty(ME): er, cash?
Idiot: may i know your occupation mdm?
Pretty:(ME) im still a student.
FUCKING IDIOT: oh!*sounded quite shock* then how about your husband?
VERY PRETTY(ME!): NB, i said i student right. unless you believe my husband is edison chen, then he is an actor lo.
FUCKING IDIOT: hang the phone.

WA NB DAMN FUCKING RUDE KNOW.
LOL.
but quite funny.

and my stomach is really going in pain.
stupid laksa. but challenging. :D

Been really sentimental to the max know.
i know.
but i cant help it uh.

after all these craps, feeling rather fuck up now.
i know is awhile only,
i guess this is call moodswing uh.
but fuck it know,
i damn feeling weird,
those i want to pee but i cant pee feeling.
LOL, i fucking dont understand.
and fucking doesnt want to give a damn.

having band break, i hope during this period of time,
things will change to be better.
everything will sort of cool down.
the 7 of us again,
the next drunk band camp again,
the prata after band again,
the dinner before band again,
all those nonsense again.

fuck la, dont even want to think of it again.
just get out of my mind know.
fucking annoying know.
ya you.
i just hope everything will be fine soon.
too many screwed up things happening.
too much to handle.

PEACE :D

When you love someone, you'll do anything,
you'll do all the crazy stuffs that you cant explain.
you'll shoot the moon, put out the sun,
when you love someone.

you'll deny the truth, believe a lie,
there'll be times that you really believe, that you can really fly.
but your lonely night have just begun,
when you love someone.

when you love someone, you'll feel deep inside,
and nothing else can ever change your mind.
when you love someone, when you need someone,
when you love someone.

when you love someone, you'll scarifies.
you'd give it everything you got, and you wouldnt think twice.
you'd risk it all, no matter what may come.
when you love someone.

you'll shoot the moon, put out the sun,
when you love someone.

no words can best describe why i did all those things, other than this song.
and today weather is so scary,
thunder wakes me up to reality,
it brought back many memories.

and i wonder, are you still feeling cold?
it been so long, since i embrace you with warmth.
and now i'd be back to my dreams,
cause reality just kills you.

how six songs collide.
and you know there's meaning to this song know.
lihai ba!
lol.

All these stuffs just keep me going on and on.
my stomach just doesn't wana let me off.
:(


You're my Honeybunch,
Sugarplum Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie.
You're my Cuppycake,
Gumdrop Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye.
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear.

<3>
goody good night, sweety sweet dreams.

Dying inside these walls.

Can i see your face in these tears?
In these tears i see your face.
your silence haunts me and i still hunger for you.

This is my curse.

WA.
i slept from 9pm to 12.30pm.
a total fo 15 hours know!
lol.

3 things that makes me happy:
1.)sleep
2.)eat spicy stuffs.
3.)running.

I SAY: " i'll be your rainbow everytime the real one falls".
I SING: "when you have to look away, when you dont have much to say,
that's when i love you, i love you just that way."

lol. idk what i talking.
i want to go back to sleep.

This is damn fuck up know.
im so going crazy for my stupid chiaroscuro.
i seriously running out of patterns la.
omfg.
13 x 9 = 117.
117 of patterns sia, knn.
and my patterns dont even gives it the tone and all for my heels.
walan eh.
kan sibei pekchek. like child's art like this.
fuckup sia.

if use shading my heels sure damn zai one la!
kao eh.
i shallnt use reason such as, cause i ain't an art student.
is all excuses.

met up with cousins all.
had football match. lol.
again i was only the girl so they kick the ball damn hard,
like they want my fucking life know.
but it was all fun, alittle superficial hurt,
wouldnt hurt that much.
ok idk what i saying.

i feel damn fucking empty now.

First time drawing.
So, DON'T LAUGH.
i know it looks like some psychotic roman hero.
i'll try to improve more.

i'd be so dissapointed in you, if what i heard is true.
cause all i know, i trusted you alot, till now i believe in you.
i dont believe you'll say such things.
if you did, then,
FUCK YOU!

the best way to quit,
is either get sick of it, or get prone to it.
avoiding doesnt help,
but facing it everyday, resisting the temptation,
till you get prone to it.
now, that's what i call zai.

Break me open. Tear me down into pieces. Broken crumbs on the ground. You can mould and shape me in your image. Breathe your life, you know I need it. Scars make us stronger for life.
Losing myself, gaining it back again. Forging strength from weakness. All that I am, all that I’m meant to be melting in your hand.


I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

Till the day i collapse,
till the day i fall.

and i wonder why am i not tired?
i need to vent.

I wonder how some people just live on like this.
like how you aked me?
Like how someone can block out everything and try to reason with themselve,
to withstand the struggling between the mind and the heart.
to think they accepted the fact, but actually they didnt.
to think they are brave enough to let go, but you think so?
maybe they just cant breakfree, that's why.
but this is life. because they told themselves, what's the point?
true, what's the point.
what's the point for not smiling like you mean it, what's the point doing things you think you're enjoying, what's the point lying to yourself.
to say they forget but actually they dont, to say they had gotten over it but actually they dont.
is a big difference between, forcing yourself to accept it, and really over it.
keeping everything doesnt help, you need to open up and free yourself.

are you gonna live with such pretendings for the rest of your life.
replacing doesnt mean forgetting.
why not face it and live with it. brace yourself up, and be yourself.