saturday .
went tuition .
was alright .
but my trigo sucks .T.T
man fuck .
i peel off that thing out of my wound .
i think gonna leave a scar .
shit shit shit .
ah . see how .
if not go for some remove scar treatment
XD

shit . i haven start revising yet .
FUCK .
bio and geo !
man .
i wana score man .
let see how .

hello miss .
i complaint ? you want me to grow up ?
then looks who is the one ?
id i ever blog about THT .
no right .
then what for you blog .
and i am not in the wrong what .
this is a CLASS .
we supposed to be UNITED ,
and not only with our own CLIQUE .
get that right .
and captain's ball AIN'T RUGBY ,
so don't play rough and unfair .
and for my SCRATCH ,
i never even say anything ,
so what right do you have ?
eh bitch ,
look before you talk .
if i the victim never say thing ,
why should you .
and think bitch .
this class is having too much clique ,
that's why is not united .

and for goodness sake .
you guys cheated right at the moment .
so what's wrong being irritated by you guys .
i close my eye .
you fucking hell want to post huh ?
then so be it .

and who's the need to groe up one here ?
YOU .
there' no need for you to blog .
and i am irritated not because of that scratch ,
is cause of the lousy teamspirit and sportsmenship bitch .

get some sport's education before you comment on me .

sigh .
my mind is all foggy .
all i can remember in my head
is 5 , 5 , 5 , 5, 5.
horrible test mark .
i stared on the the paper with disbelief .
it doesn't feel good being the last in class .
it feel horrible .
inside me i feel hollow .
i feel so disgrace and totally embarassed .
i feel ashamed of myself .
i studied .
i studied 4 chaps out of 5 .
but it jsut happen that ,
everything came out from the last chap ,
which i didn't study .
and i only did a few questions .

now , i feel like a trapped animal who wants to claw
it ways through the glass door .
but no matter how i try , it seems redundant .
i want to sleep and engrossed myself in my dreams .
but i know ,
moment later i will be where it all started .
in all ,
nothing's changed , and i know nothing will .
i know it was all a lie , a fantasy .
but i know ...
nothing will ever be like it was back then ,
the good times are all memories .
sigh .
:((

i am left with all the lazyness .
my homeworks .
and is tons .
all thank to seahshiyun .
you bitch .
i want to study .
but how can i ?
i lost myself , i lost everything .
i lost the battle .

if i head towards the hade ,
will you stop me ?
or let me continue the journey .
i wish i would tell you the four important words too .

AHHHH .

boo !
yesterday went back band to teach the juniors .
quite alright .
got the old feeling back .
i love teaching .
hahs .
oh yea .
take a look at this .





LOL XD .

i finished my 2 english , emaths and ya .
WEE .
so glad !! ((:
i think i am neglecting chinese .
T.T
and i speak like some idiot now .
oh man .

amaths .
i want to buck up !
i want to get a1 !
i want to study .
so yea i went studying ,
nope , we went studying .
me leong quek jas .
woo nice .
been a long time since we went out together .

oh yea great .
so bored !
my fringe SUCKS .
is so short .
and fuck is making no improvement .
an formula for fast hair growth ?
TELL ME PLEASE .

woo . i must AIM HIGH .
yes , let's fly .
i spread my wings , and i know how to fly .
:)) LOVES .
xoxo .

let's aim for the moon , even if we can't get it ,
we'll land among the STARS .

goodnight . <3

oh today was great .
my return to school .
but sadly not to band .
seriously i feel so uneasy without band .

i had no longer the drive to hand on until school ends for band ,
or to panick where to get the keys ,
or to think how the tic will do to us .
or start worrying .
no more .

feel so weird .
and when i see them in hall ,
had the urge to rush in and fall them in .
my gosh .
but that was the past .
now i have to put it all down .
i have to study hard .
and then continue my passion .

oh right
enough of band .
but ah i miss them .
but i hate to see them .
but i want to see mr de .
hahs .
i feel so like chatting with him .
XD

still looking for amaths .
fees kinda high , still thinking .

oh yea .
nothing more .
amaths test tomorrow so loves .
gonna flunk again .
damn shag .
but i must improve !

i am a superhero , and i shouldn't let people drained my power .
i should keep it .
hahs .

oh yea , by the way .
jaslyn tan .
a close friend like us , endure and blinded oursleves by all those
character of yours ,
you stated in your blog .
cause we are close friends .
if one day we were to tell you ,
we hate you ,
then we are just some bitches .
we correct you and not hate you .
and if you yourself know that you are such a person ,
then what for carry on the mistakes ?
and for your info ,
we didn't HATE YOU ,
but dislike some character of yours .
we told you once told you twice .
how about the thrice ?
just forget it .
you love truth , now i am telling you the truth .
you love making it public i make it public now .
we are not responsible for
your moodswing your actions ,
we four , had not been quarrelling for 3 YEARS .
don't break the record .
so you are ain't happy with our actions ,
then you tell us .
and not writing down you own obvious mistakes ,
and sound it like us .
is yours my dear ,
and not US .

i am fucking sick .
fever , flu , cough .
and fuck i burnt my tongue .
fuckiing pain .

so hate it .
and my head seems to weigh like an elephant's ass .
so heavy .
guessed i was very sick already last week ,
but was handing on .
now , i let it all out .

yup , we got bronze .
was expected , but didn't expect out night safari ,
to be so ... bad .
that's the sad part .
but ,
i am gonna miss my juniors ,
very much .
and my life will be greatly changed .
no band after school ,
what to do after that ?
is my culture to go to band everyday .
hahs .
had to change .

but , thanks to them ,
they make me leave easier .
ya yes ,
khai , ghaz and hil .
thanks for being such hateful soul ,
and letting me knowing what the world is like .
and to people who follows them ,
don't be so dumb la ,
grow up la .
see and not hear .
action and not words ,
dumbs .

oh yea .
is finally over ,
i wanted to study , but slept whole day
T.T
i don't know where to start .
so shit .
i want to study for mid year ,
but i don't have to drive to !
knn .
must find back .
AH .

oh yea .
let's talk about it tommorow .
my tongue freaking pain ,
and my whole mouth taste like fuck !
pcb .
i am becoming very vulgar .
XD

JELLY BEANS .

hohoho . taken during the geography tutorial .
((: nice eh .

i fail my amaths test : differentation ,
SHAGGGGGGGGGGGGG .
but nehmind , i improved !!!
yea .
so i must continued to improve till ,
a1 !!
i must ...
xD

vectors , screwed man !
screw screw screw ....
AHHHHH .
i cant do vector
boohoo .
T.T

oh . god bless .
syf , please come .
and please be fine .
ah .
mixed .
reputation on the wane .

AHHHH .

ya things come and goes like this .
even though i am not very close to you guys ,
but ya i wish that 4express1 will always be united .

forget it .
both are hard to persuade ,
both are at fault .
one for stiring up , the other for responding .
anyway , both grow up .
put everything down .
what for , being eyesore to each other .

anyway , best of lucks to both.
sincerly wish that friend once again .
as an outsider me , shouldn't give more .
but we are all neutral .
both of you are negative ,
that's why it never meets .

LOVES <3>
friends ? ha .

i want to study , i want to score .
i hope everything goes fine .
is my last fall . and 16th is the day .
be it good or bad .
whatever the case is ,
i had given my best .
:D

and ya .
on my aspect i rather lose both or gain both .
cause i don't want any party to get hurt .
maybe i had been lousy ,
but it had never change .
believe me .
i don't blame you on anything .
i know .
i know you hate it , that's why i walked away .
thanks for helping .
but such things i prefer to do it alone .
as for others i still need you .
we're gonna be the best buddy ever .
trust me . (:
let's not lose to each other .
LOVES <3

what happen if ,
when you didn't feel like giving up , but your surrounding is ?
when they add pressure on you for time like this .
when u needed applause rather than sarcasm ,
when u wanted to show people your presence .


my life's on the wane .

let's MOVE on .
:))

i seriously don't know how to communicate with them anymore .
one is either scream and shout ,
the other just show black face .
and they LOVEEEEEEE to make a big fuss .
fuck it .
i hate it .

some great hero please bring me away .
from my agony .
i hate it .
how long more can i last .
i meet the devil everyday .
soon i'll join them .
i swear .

went sumatra island today .
was funnnnn . (:
and ED was cute .
hahs . 33 year old ,
can't believe it .
man man man .

no one cares a shit about how i'm feeling right now .
yes i am shit .
everything been down on me lately .
i hate to wake up , as i don't want to face the new day .
is hell .
yes my results sucks .
is not because i am lousy . is because of the daily work .
and so what's wrong if i am really lousy .
i'll be better if someone is willing to give me encouragement .
but how about you dad ?
you condemed my .
whole family comdem me .
yes i am lousy .
i am lazy .
i suck .
i am stupid .
i am useless .
you guys just don' understand what i'm going through right now .

on earth . the toughest person to be is to be helpful .
caused you turned out to be a fool .
everybody will think you are super .
and expect more for you .
but i am A human .

fuck .
let me die and drown myself .
i don't wish to stay any longer .
everyday is about fake smile .
who can bring me back .
none .
let me sink .

before you start blaming ,
please think about what i did before .
after that , think if you gt the right to blame .
or expect more .
fuck fuck fuck .
i never been like this in my 15 years .
hope it'll be the last one .
i must endure till 16th .