Posted on Sunday, February 11, 2007, at 3:39 PM
i got no mood for a-mathsing man .ahhh . having test on tues .
p&c and binomial .
ah shag .
should be alright if i practise .
if not . i had already forgotten everything .
ah .
i feel rather fuastrated .
not stress YET .
i don't really feel the pressure for o's or whatever .
i think that time is really moving too slow .
ah . o's come come .
i want finish my secondary school life .
everything had been hindering my ways .
i want to study and that's all .
i want to finish my responsibilty and that's all .
yes . maybe he make my life easier .
by having my burden down earlier .
but i don't want .
AH .
i hate to listen to bad comments .
i thought everyone had woke up .
but i was wrong .
i thought my closest one understood .
but then agan i was wrong .
i thought they would come influence under me .
then again i was wrong .
i thought i could change them in any way i could .
but then again i was wrong .
i thought having some burden on me , will make me stronger .
still i was wrong .
everything was a mistake from the start .
i shouldn't bear responsiblity .
i just don't understand .
my effort and all was gone .
even for the simpliest thing .
i don't understand .
i shouldn't had talk so much and should had shut my mouth up .
i should have just let them die .
but again i want to remind them .
remember the day where we first learn our instrument ,
the first sound we played .
the first drill we had .
the first scoldings we got .
the first everything .
everything was statisfaction .
and we all love it .
but now . we grew and see more .
some had hatre
some think is boring
however , from the start we love it .
we all know stop denying .
no matter who you hate ,
me , t-i-c , alumni still is a band .
lysb got no wrong .
lysb shouldn't suffer . is just a reputation .
what's harming it . is us .
nothing else but us .
if only you guys selfishness and hatre could put aside .
and stop whinning and complaining .
and sectional .
and dont think that you are the best
there's nothing as i got nothing to do .
you can pack the store room i don't mind .
whatever the case is . is excuses .
stop finding excuses to hide your lazzyness .
if you feel guilty after these . you are who i'm refering to .
i myself feel it too .
stop saying i want when you don't want .
stop saying you don't want when you want .
whatever the case is .
face the reality .
we are on the same boat . some pushing the baot .
some just increasing the weight of the boat .
hindering the progress .
i got so much things to say .
really .
but i just think .
i want to live in a world of my own .
caused i think everyone don't make sense .
i think i make alot of sense .
i think people around me are jsut adding on to unneccesary actions .
making life difficult .
i think everyone don' make sense .
i think the whole world doesn't make sense .
i think singapore doesn't make sense .
i think loyang doesn't make sense .
i think hod doesn't make sense .
i think YOU don't make any SENSE .
i should live on mars .
not that i am anti scial .
but surrounding making me to hate human beings .
i want to live in farm . talk to teh sheep dance with ducks .
at least is better than staying with human .
ah . i am thinking too far .
but i know i might be wrong .
someone slap me hard on my face and tell me MY bad points .
but then again .
i think i the only one who make sense .
so i don't admire any one , and think they make NO sense .
and i don't follow anyone so is difficult to change ME .
actually i know my bad points . just that ,
i don't have the guts to face it .
and my surroundings making my bad points feel good .
so whatever the case is . i am pampered .
HAHA .
i am mad . i am contradict .
i don't expect anyone to understand cause i don't .
AH .
actually i do want someone to understand me .
and shower me with loves sweets cares and concerns .
i am dreaming .
noone ever will . cause i am strong .
yes .
the oh so almighty wonderous super women SEAHSHIYUN .
:D