Posted on Wednesday, April 25, 2007, at 8:06 PM
sigh .my mind is all foggy .
all i can remember in my head
is 5 , 5 , 5 , 5, 5.
horrible test mark .
i stared on the the paper with disbelief .
it doesn't feel good being the last in class .
it feel horrible .
inside me i feel hollow .
i feel so disgrace and totally embarassed .
i feel ashamed of myself .
i studied .
i studied 4 chaps out of 5 .
but it jsut happen that ,
everything came out from the last chap ,
which i didn't study .
and i only did a few questions .
now , i feel like a trapped animal who wants to claw
it ways through the glass door .
but no matter how i try , it seems redundant .
i want to sleep and engrossed myself in my dreams .
but i know ,
moment later i will be where it all started .
in all ,
nothing's changed , and i know nothing will .
i know it was all a lie , a fantasy .
but i know ...
nothing will ever be like it was back then ,
the good times are all memories .
sigh .
:((
i am left with all the lazyness .
my homeworks .
and is tons .
all thank to seahshiyun .
you bitch .
i want to study .
but how can i ?
i lost myself , i lost everything .
i lost the battle .
if i head towards the hade ,
will you stop me ?
or let me continue the journey .
i wish i would tell you the four important words too .