i am damn dissapointed with my results .
in fact all .
amaths paper 1 really brought my mood to the lowest .
i partically gave up everything for amaths .
and oh yes , i failed .
i was damn careless !
3 differentiation ,
i only got 1 right . the other 2 , i copied wrongly .
and the logarithms .
damn fuck .
i feel like smashing myself .

i pass my history paper .
miraculous .
thanks to my source base i guessed .

i thought for it for days .
yes i should be responsible for the decision i took ,
and for what i subjects i had .
i can't give up on subjects i don't like ,
i should at least try .
i shouldnt sacrifice any subject for anything .
if i were consistence enough ,
this will not be happening to me .
i can do algebra , cause i used to practise like mad .
i can't do culmulative grahp , loci and transformation
for nuts , cause i didn't practise .
is not i am stupid , that i can't do it ,
is i don't practise it .
practise make perfect .
i can't be contented with such basic and little knowledge i had .
i shouldn't be so complacence , and think i'm oh so great .

it was my navie thinking from the start .
spotting questions , and abandoning subject is stupid .
i should have studied from the starting .
but fuck it yo , i wasn't consistence .
i never study since sec 3 .
never really .

i am going to learn from my mistake and start afreash .
what's the use dreaming of getting ,
when after a moment we'll be back at where we started ?
we shall achieve it .

and i don't regret my actions .
cause it was for band .
but it is not an excuse ,
at least for now .

:D