Posted on Monday, August 06, 2007, at 8:36 PM
oh yea !!!i got my happy meal spoonge bob key chain .
HAHA .
so cute la sio .
amaths test was soso .
i think la .
perhaps a few careless .
SAD .
T.T
alright . nehmind .
practise more .
:D
humans are so superficial ain't they ?
i had been persueing for meaning and feeling in life .
i used to persue things which are ,
more spiritual , for the meaning of it .
but now , no longer .
i am persueing different things now .
i want things which can make me happy and statisfied ,
no longer want things that only contain meaning .
those thing are real happiness ,
but is difficult to feel it .
i no longer has the ability to feel the real happiness .
i threw that ability somewhere .
now i want superficial happiness .
i used to think guys who can give me feelings are precious ,
now , guys who can give me money are more precious .
i don't give a fuck care .
i can't find myself anymore .
i am lost out there .
i want to be the superficial lot .
maybe one day , i will find my meaning back .
my heart no longer has feeling ,
no longer has emotions . i only want to be happy ,
and nothing else concern me at all .
but why am i still bleeding ?
i choose fake happiness ,
that's the only way .
find me back please .
i hate myself for being like that ,
but i got no choice to .
so long i can stay happy , nothing else matter .
just let me stay "HAPPY" for these moments .
i will find my way back someday .
i hope so ,
and i hope , i will bring someone along with me too ,
back to the old you and me .
i feel so fake .
i am disgusted by myself somehow .
but for now ,
CHEERIOS !
laugh and smile whole heartedly .
YEA !
:D