Posted on Sunday, September 16, 2007, at 1:28 AM
oh boo .woke up early for tuition .
really is cmi .
so tired , damn shag too .
:(
reached home , slept , and woke up quite awhile later .
by some shoutings , i don't know who's .
i cant be bothered too .
went out studied , much of talkings .
hahs .
:D
walked home .
took the long path ,
i need some of it .
no , many of those times in fact , where i stroll back
with peace .
:DD
having so much random thoughts .
and yep .
sis left , everyone miss her .
yep is sad for 25 years of relationship to be given away .
but everyone have to go one day .
everyone got to establish themselves in one way or another .
there is alwayas parting .
is difficult for 25 years to be given to him .
but you got to trust him , that he will continue the years with her .
if it hurts you all seeing each other like this .
then i am feeling worst .
both side i think is wrong , but i cant voice out ,
cause i don't want to hurt you guys .
then i got to hear ranting from both sides ,
disgusted , but what can i do .
i heard high hopes pin on me ,
then what about the pressure .
i am still young okay ?
16 years old , i don't wan be tied down my family problems .
i heard both parties and it seems like is all misunderstanding .
yes sometimes they are overbroad sometimes you are overbroad ,
but each got their flaws . and i thik you ought to accept theirs ,
caused i can tell they tried to accept yours .
both is selfish ,
one cant let go , the other cant wait to be free .
you gained a man , they lost a child .
so much of a marriage .
but perhaps they are thinking too much ,
caused i know you'll be back .
but what else can i do ?
nothing . yes nothing .
cause i am the youngest , i cant talk sense to adult like you guys .
ya , true . but i think you all just doesn't make sense .
i am feeling terrible .
very . my hopes seemed so dashed ,
and i feel the extra hopes of their weighing down on me .
gosh . what they want me to do next ?
score 8 a-s ?
and stay at their side forever ?
but i want to play . but if i did , i am selfish .
what should i do .
what the fuck .
i am confused , stop contradicting me .
i had my own plans .
am i being selfish ?
ninabei .
i thought it was a happy occassion .
supposed to be .
after , before or during , it should be .
sigh .
还好我们还有你陪我们。
那谁来陪我 ？
代沟 ， 你们明白吗？