Posted on Wednesday, October 17, 2007, at 11:26 PM
damn .i just don't understand .
i am feeling so vexed .
i don't know how to control my thoughts .
i am having so many answer and question
in my mind .
so many doubts .
so contradicting .
just tell me the truth can ?
just tell it straight to my face can ?
i don't ike to be kept in the dark .
even if it hurts me ,
i want to know .
i don't want to be like a fool ,
being brought around the merry go round ,
knowing nothing , yet going round and round .
is very tiring .
please .
can you like tell me everything i want to know .
please la bang , or BANGS .
i want to know .
i don't like to have doubts .
and you want to know how i feel ?
this is how i feel over the past months .
Saturday, September 22, 2007
10:19 AM
the promise i gave you , will be kept .i said i will hold on to your hand ,and walk on the journey , i mean i will .and i mean it .even though i am no longer by your side ,but i will do whatever it takes to watch over you .i love you and thats the fact .nobody could explain why our love would develop .not even me .i just love the way you are .the way you smile .the way you talk .the way you think .and everything .i love you and i really do .i remember wht you did and what you said .i remembered what i did and what i said .no matter how hurt i am now .i know you feel it worst than me .but baby ,let me be at your side to feel it with you ,to share with you ,to ease your pain with my kiss ,and to embrace you in my warmth .like how i used to .i will never let go of your hand useless , i really got to go .i miss you baby .i seriosuly do .i miss your laughter .i miss the way you kiss me .i miss the way you hug me .i miss the way you feed me with water in your mouth .i miss your tom yam soup .i miss the bus journey home with you .i miss the walk with you home .i miss smacking mosquitoes with you .i miss eating cup noodles with you .i miss having breakfast with you .i miss drawing on your fac e.i miss playing ji ko pa with you .i miss playing water with yuo .i miss going to band practise with you .i miss going to eat sakae with you .i miss going to dental appointment with you .i miss having to eat pizza with you .i miss taking the train together with you .i miss going to hair cut with you .i miss practising with you .i miss doing homeworks with you .i miss playing seesaw with you .i miss watching movie with you .i miss having seoul garden with you .i miss having long john with you .i miss eating kinder surprise with you .i miss your call in the night .i miss talking to you on the phone all the way to morning .i miss your miss calls .i miss the way you anxiously looked for me .i miss the you acred for me .i miss the messages you had messaged me .i miss the web cam session with you .i miss the 3G with you .i miss your crying .i miss your tears .i miss your cute voice .i miss disturbing you .i miss irritating you .i miss washing hair with you .i miss hiding at your place .i miss waiting bus with you .i miss you walking bare footed .i miss you holding my hand tightly .i miss taking care of you .i miss going shopping with you .i miss playing with you .i miss piggy back you .i miss dancing infront of you .i miss making you laugh .i miss seeing the way you laugh .i miss your laughters .i miss you tickling .i miss your bite .i miss your pinch .i miss watching tv with you .i miss playing poker with you .i miss going to beach with you .i miss watching stars with you .i miss loving you .i miss every single part of you .and whatever you did you said ,i will deeply remember .i love you baby .and remember ,i believe in you no matter what baby .you will be fine my baby .i will pray for you .your safety and everything .i hope you do fine baby .i love you , and you'll be theonly one i love .cause you gave me meanings in life .now i am leading a no meaning life .and i cant find back my real happiness .one day i will .and i hope baby ,you'll find your too .i only hope ,you would call and chat with me ,or share with me your pain .so i can be tehre with you again .baby .i love you .i miss you .i need you .i want you .as much as you do .i want to know do you miss me ,as much as i miss you baby .tell me baby .whether our love was once true . loves
if you want to know , read all these .
is alot , is on my private blog .
and you know what , is the truth .
so stop doubting me .
i hate it .
cause i seahshiyun , had got nothing to hide .
please .
see and use your brain to think .
fucking hell .
i am fucking not feeling alright okay ?
am if i am so bitch to you ,
then at least tell it right to my face .
you don't even trust me ,
i don't understand why .