Posted on Saturday, November 17, 2007, at 12:29 AM
went back loyang .played my saxophone .
saprano sax .
whao .
it had been ages since i came for band ,
scold the band ,
conduct the band
and lastly
combined with them .
:D
well , i guessed i didn't change at all .
went down to nco .
fucking hell at yishun .
cabbed down to nee soon camp .
fucking far .
T.T
nco was great .
love the songs .
:D
oh well .
many asked if i am having split personality .
yes yes yes .
i seemed very okay and happy outside ,
and fucking emo here .
if i cant even vent it here ,
then where can i vent it at ?
you ? you ? you ? or YOU ?
no right .
so obviously ,
i got to vent it out .
and even i say things out ,
what can you do ?
what can i do ?
nothing . precisely .
then so stfu .
is like the same old lines which i know .
but i want answers and not advises .
back then in sec 3 ,
i complained and whine about stuffs .
like how busy i was and blahblahblah .
that was mentally tired .
i can get free from it easily .
but now i am emotionally tired .
get what i mean ?
is not just ya ,
forget it .
so don't ask me to .
cause is impossible right ?
you know ,
getting kill instantly ,
without knowing the answer .
would you rest in peace ?
and the reason for the murder ,
is not because you are bad ,
cause you're perfect .
who the fuck can take that ?
i cant .
so just let me be .
perhaps ,
i might have split personality ,
i just don't want my friends to be sad .
i want everyone to be happy .
caused that what i do best .
if you don't let me do it ,
then what else can i do ?
i don't know .
so this blog is just for rantings
and scoldings .
who know .
a couples of months ,
when i am really free from my emotion setbacks .
i might delete this blog and create a new one .
like :
www.seahshiyunisreallyhappy.blogspot.com .
who knows .
like i say ,
i wouldn't show people the weakness of mine ,
the tears and sadness of mine .
cause is not meant to be seen .
is for someone special to see .
so take me as i am .
so answer ,
now you see i am happy ,
and now you don't .
do you know what to do ?
fuck your mother's pussy .