Posted on Thursday, February 21, 2008, at 10:21 PM
Someone who took care of me since young,feed me and everything.
but i cant really say,
she takes care of me,
but she didn't not do her job.
i dont know how to feel towards her,
but i would say i pity her.
i wonder how can someone,
said such awful words/phrase.
is like inhuman.
and how someone can change so fast
just to earn the liking of her husband.
this women really loves her husband so much,
then he is the only thing she would want on earth.
noone, i mean noone can get close to him,
be it their own children.
is funny isn't it.
that's where selfishness comes in?
or true love being possesive?
no definite answer i think.
And now i would no longer know how to show
emotions to her.
i am too afraid of her,
too amused by her.
i nolonger can love and smile to her like i used to.
infact i had not smile or laugh with her in a conversation.
cause she screws it all,
she hates conversation.
i cant understand,
and she unknowingly hurt me,
puzzled me and definetely,
input fears in me.
the fear of being like her,
having her character.
i hope is not in the blood.
seriously.
and i miss you like crazy.