i made a big mistake.
a good intention which turn of bad.
a bad impression to god-damn worst.
a mistake which leads to no end.
how can i forgive myself?
a guy whom helped me so much in the past,
and now i got to dissapoint him.
i feel so terrible that it turned out this way,
and i never expect it would be.
if only people can see things in 2 ways,
things wouldnt be so bad.
i admit my wrong,
he admitted his wrong,
but thing just gone to big,
and the power of friendship is still not there.
and now everything falls.
is all my wrong,
i shouldn't planned everything so nicely,
and told noone about it.
they mistaken him about it,
and i made him feel so pathetic,
like a loner.
i shouldn't.
everything starts from me,
and it ended on them.
and i know,
nothing gonna be the same i know.
and this is the only way i can show my feelings to everyone.
i always thought i was right,
and even when i done something wrong,
i will get forgiven easily,
cause when people does me wrong,
i forgive them easily.
but i didn't know,
not everyone is the same.
different people with different perspect.
i didnt know,
i dont know.
i know it isn't right for a boyfriend to be like this,
but i dont mind.
but others mind i didnt know.
i didnt know,
someone confidence respect and conscious
is so difficult to earn back.
i thought it was easy,
because i can.
but i forgot,
they are not me.
what i did i hurt my boyfriend,
and i hurt my friend.
either way i choose is so wrong,
so so wrong.
what should i do?
give up both and start a new life.
i know i can always do it,
but i can't bear to give up both.
i owe them too much.
both parties,
cause they'll never know how much he sacrifies for me.
and he'll never know how much they tried for me.
and they'll never know i didn't mean a thing.
and i'll never know how much it means to them,
cause i always forget,
they're not me.
they see him as bad,
see him as attiude see him as childish
see him as insensible.
i know.
sometimes he does.
but how can i expect him to change sososo fast.
idk.
everything i said just seems so wrong.
if i admit my fault,
he says i side my friends.
if i doesnt admit my fault,
they said i pamper him.
but there is two way i see.
two,
i saw both mistake,
cause i understand both side.
but i forgot,
they dont understand him much,
and he doesnt understand them much either.
i just want to say,
he's not a badie.