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Posted on Friday, December 19, 2008, at 1:21 AM
no mood for x'mas. feeling heavy yet feeling healthy and fit. i dont know why also. i want to loose weight fuck. want school to reopen soon, idk why. very annoyed but dk what reason. very lazy to do many things but want/need to do. going crazy. yiruma really is the sex. so romantic, dying in his playing of piano is so worth it. feel like vomiting always after my meal, any meal. damn depressing to see my belly, not flabby but big and firm. sad to see people around so stupid and dumb. curse and swear to those uselss people on earth, wish they never exist. continue living it's hell so why not end it. if not make full use of it. try to eat healthy food. dont feel like eating but cant resist. idk why. mind and soul strugling like fuck. really trying and thinking of easier way and faster way, but fuck no. argh. i want to sleep. bye.