it's been long,
Posted on Saturday, December 13, 2008, at 1:06 AM
sinceiwriteveryemotionalwordsonthisblog.haha,readingthosearchivemakesmethinkalot.eachandeverysentenceisfilledwith,manyenglisherrorsandsorrows.
hahaha.sometimesiwonderifthathelps,butithink itdoes.
tothinkthatinearlytearedwhenireadallthosesillyposttoday,imustbereallysilly!butthenagain,
itsallmemoriesthatisworthtokeepandthinkof.allthosestrongwordsthatwasonlymeantforyou,
iwonderhowdoyoureactandfeeleachtimeyoureaditoryourjustignore,andiamnotsurpriseifyoudont
feelanythingaboutit,causeiguessisnothingmuchbutjustemptyandhollowwordsthatexpresses
myself.iwasreallyseekingforanswerandlivinginselfdenialallthewhile,butiguessigotoutofthatnow,
andislivingwellwithfood,air,waterandfriends.ineverfeltsoattachedtosomeonebeforebutthenagain,
theresalwaysanothertime.andmaybeidontwanttobebackinthepast,likeyou,iwantanewlife.likeyou
iwanttofindoneself.butihavealwaysbeenme,andididneverchange,justlikehowmybeliefcanneverbe
change,causeitisyouthatibelievein.thanksforhelpingmetomakeadecisionwhenicouldnt,yougaveme
somethingthatnobodycouldevergivemewhichisyourunderstanding.