upon realising your beauty,
Posted on Tuesday, December 23, 2008, at 12:17 PM
woah, xmas in 2 days time. which means 2009 is coming soon. many said 2008 wasnt a very good year, lets hope 2009 would be better. idk why im blogging at this hour, like afternoon? couldnt carry on sleeping anymore, oh well. feeling damn lazy to drag myself out of the house. but still have to do it. idk how im feeling right now. have the sudden urge to pen down what im feeling. but when im on this page, everything seems to stuck. i want to say idw 2009 to come so soon, cause it means i'll be one year older soon! and maybe i dont want to accept the fact that everything was over for so many months. then again, i wish time would pass faster, like really damn fast. i just want the only thing that i dont have right now, something which is missing. maybe im just not contented with everything. i should look at the brighter side of life. but how many time in life can human always live in self denial saying, please look at the brighter side of life, when you know is all facade. people who most probably say that, bottle up their feelings, fake a smile, try to tell others you can do it, but at the end of the day, you realise everything is still in you. and at some point of time in life, it comes haunting you then you conquer it, press it all down again, and the next day begin again. and why cant my wishes come true? why cant i live in my own world? why can't i have things going my way? why cant you just fucking grow up, and how the fuck did you manage to put it all down.
NO, im not depress, just my feelings.
time to eat veg, bath and off i go.