i am counting,

Just like me,

Posted on Sunday, January 04, 2009, at 12:10 AM

Why so stars, fall down from the sky?went for band on friday, it seems like i lost touch with music. i think i suck at it so much. idk whats missing, i feel so different no longer like the past. i even came up with stupid bullshit like i need a better mouthpiece but i doubt i can play better with a correct mouthpiece. can i? and what more, i can play if i play loud and all, but i just dont have the fucking ballz to do it during combine, so depressing. feel so breathless and what not. somehow feel like giving up on music already.
lets skip all those depressing killing thoughts and to the happier side, went over to nigel's house after that! play i never again, but this time round i wasn't high/drunk, cause i drank damn little ah. i swear im not gonna drink or touch alcohol after school reopen till godknowswhen. :D after that, slacked and chatted with jon and ivan, was somewhat very nice, and we were all very honest and all. lol. knew many things that were damn shocking, lol. anyway, then we went back, then they started to sleep, and i coudnt sleep. so stay awake the whole night, till morning, took a cab home and sleep.
alex woke me up, and asked if im going for the gathering, so i went to bath and met alex at my block. off we went to mr han's place. hahaha. very nice decorated and all. was nice to meet my classmates again, though not all were present. mr han treated all of us dinner and here i am.
ok, i think i am damn fucking tired, and idk why i typed so much happenings. damn uncomfortable now. ok bye! lol